When I went to the palace of gold yesterday. I wanted to find some more devtional music to listen to since I really don't have any. I had found something by Srila Prabhupada that had different melodies of him chanting the maha mantra in a bhajan and kirtans which was something that I was looking for. I was also trying to look for Aarti songs too to listen to as well and I did find one Aarti songs CD it was by Lokanath Swami.
But anyways I think i sort of got hooked on to Srila Prabhupada's CD with the different melodies on it. I like track number 5 as it does have a nice tune and beat to it.It gets pretty ecstatic towards the end. And here I am still listening to that same track on the CD. This is one thing about me, I like to listen to music when Im doing something. If I don't I don't get motivated or inspired to do it. And I can't think of a better way than to listen to Srila Prabhupada's kirtan. It will keep me occupied until I make recordings of my own guru Maharaj's kirtans. I know my guru Maharaj's kirtans can get pretty wild! Just like that Saturday night when he led that kirtan. I was like HOLY SMOKES! I never been to a kirtan THAT ecstatic before in my life. I hope I see him lead another one like that. I go crazy over those kirtans because it makes me feel like Im at a concert or something. :D Only it's a devotional concert lol.
Yeah I do like this CD I got. I had gotten rid of most of my karmi CDs I kept some of George's of course but the rest I gave up including Beatles ones. I have to get some more devotional ones. Once I get an Ipod I can download some devotional songs when i get to Toronto because they have a better internet connection there for me to do that. I can download some Srila Prabhupada lecturs or kirtans and bhajans and other stuff too. Im going to try and redownload the 24 hour kirtan too because i really like that. Unfortunately I will not be here in New Vrndavan for the 24 hour kirtan this year as I will more than likely be in Toronto by then hopefully.
Many thanks to Srila Prabhupada for getting us hooked on kirtans. That was one thing that kept me attracted to the movement was the kirtans because Im so picky about music and well might as well be hooked onto Krishna music! :)
Sunday, May 22, 2011
What Timing!
Yesterday I had told Nitya Mukta that there were two flowering trees by the palace of gold that had purplish pink flowers on the trees, that I saw on my way back to the temple from Mandakinin's house. I didn't have a bag with me at the time yesterday to pick them. So I had told her I'd pick them today.
Getting these types of flowers were not easy. I had to go into the tiny gulley in the woods just to get to them. There were broken branches on the ground an also thick green plants around them. I don't think they were poison ivy because they only had two leaves on each side not three like poison ivy does. I actually had to try to bend the branches of the tree as far down as I could to reach the ones at the top. Seems like the ones on the top are always the best looking ones. Probably because they are getting the most sunlight which is what plants like...sunlight. I did manage to fill up my bag with the flowers. We'll see how the Deities look tomorrow with those flowers on Them.
And the funny thing of it was just as I got back Nitya Mukta was just about to go out herself to pick these same flowers, but I had saved her to the trouble to go through that. I didn't mind picking those flowers despite the difficulty to get them for the Deities. I just hope Sri Sri Radha Vrndavan Chandra will be pleased with the flowers on Them tomorrow. All I can say is what timing when I got back to the temple because I was able to give them to Nitya Mukta for her to make garlands with right away so she didn't have to wait or go out herself.
Getting these types of flowers were not easy. I had to go into the tiny gulley in the woods just to get to them. There were broken branches on the ground an also thick green plants around them. I don't think they were poison ivy because they only had two leaves on each side not three like poison ivy does. I actually had to try to bend the branches of the tree as far down as I could to reach the ones at the top. Seems like the ones on the top are always the best looking ones. Probably because they are getting the most sunlight which is what plants like...sunlight. I did manage to fill up my bag with the flowers. We'll see how the Deities look tomorrow with those flowers on Them.
And the funny thing of it was just as I got back Nitya Mukta was just about to go out herself to pick these same flowers, but I had saved her to the trouble to go through that. I didn't mind picking those flowers despite the difficulty to get them for the Deities. I just hope Sri Sri Radha Vrndavan Chandra will be pleased with the flowers on Them tomorrow. All I can say is what timing when I got back to the temple because I was able to give them to Nitya Mukta for her to make garlands with right away so she didn't have to wait or go out herself.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Afternoon And Evening Japa Walk
I must say that quote that my guru Maharaj had on his blog post "You need some inspiration, go for a walk" really hit the nail on the head for me. I went on TWO japa walks today.
I walked up with Mandakini to her house and then I walked back which was quite a bit of a distance but I enjoyed it anyway. Then I made that stop at the palace of gold and walked aroudn there and back to the temple again. It was a good day to be outside. Guests were around visiting and also out and about walking around.
Then I took an evening japa walk after I finished serving Tulasi. The evening was very beautiful. The sun setting was pretty. I liked seeing the sunlight through the trees as it was setting. I finished the last of my rounds i only had about two.
As I walked around the pond in the evening there were still many guests around. And then toward the end of my walk I noticed all the animals were coming out. Maybe I should take my walks in the evening because I could see some wildlife around. I saw the peacocks. There were three peacocks who had all their feathers up which was very pretty. The female peacocks were waddling around too. Then I saw some Canadian Geese, and regular ducks, and I saw two deer past the peacock cage by the cabins from a distance. And then on my last time around I stood to watch the swans again. They were primming themselves and then the mother swan led the way into the pond with their four baby swans following in single file behind their mother and the father brought up the rear. It was so cute to see them in a single file line with the parents carefully guarding their childeren. Nice to see a family spending quality time together. Something I never really had as a child with my own parents since they had divorced. So I do admire these swans as the perfect family.
I walked up with Mandakini to her house and then I walked back which was quite a bit of a distance but I enjoyed it anyway. Then I made that stop at the palace of gold and walked aroudn there and back to the temple again. It was a good day to be outside. Guests were around visiting and also out and about walking around.
Then I took an evening japa walk after I finished serving Tulasi. The evening was very beautiful. The sun setting was pretty. I liked seeing the sunlight through the trees as it was setting. I finished the last of my rounds i only had about two.
As I walked around the pond in the evening there were still many guests around. And then toward the end of my walk I noticed all the animals were coming out. Maybe I should take my walks in the evening because I could see some wildlife around. I saw the peacocks. There were three peacocks who had all their feathers up which was very pretty. The female peacocks were waddling around too. Then I saw some Canadian Geese, and regular ducks, and I saw two deer past the peacock cage by the cabins from a distance. And then on my last time around I stood to watch the swans again. They were primming themselves and then the mother swan led the way into the pond with their four baby swans following in single file behind their mother and the father brought up the rear. It was so cute to see them in a single file line with the parents carefully guarding their childeren. Nice to see a family spending quality time together. Something I never really had as a child with my own parents since they had divorced. So I do admire these swans as the perfect family.
George Harrison Found His Way Back Into My Life Again
Well this was interesting today. As I had done my walk around the Palace of Gold I stopped in the Palace Gift shop and browsed through the CDs and found one CD of George there. Looks like George found his way back into my life again. I have not heard his music in such a long while. Maybe that was why I was feeling grouchy these last few days...lack of George's music LOL. I had found a couple pics of George I had in my bag and brought those out too to chase the grouchiness away. it helped.
I've been a fan of George's since I was 13 and Im still nuts for him. In the past so called friends have said "oh you'll get tired of him or get burned out." And have I? NO! The reason why I havent heard George's music in awhile is due to being busy with devotional service, but now I can find time to squeeze into listening to his songs again while Im doing service. That will lighten my mood up a bit. After all George brought me to Krishna and he even helped me to find a special guru Maharaj to continue my spirituality with. I believe this was why George kept appearing in my dreams alot. He wanted me to continue on with spirituality. Im sure he saw how curious I was and all and just wanted to help me grow more. And he was successful with it and he still will be for the rest of my life. My guru Maharaj said that George is like a guru to me, and he had instructed me not to put George away or give up on him because of that reason.
I know George must be happy with the progress I've made during this past year. I felt his presence at my initiation through my heart since they say that a guru is always with you in your heart. So I felt that George was there with a big smile on his face while my guru Maharaj was talking about him through out my whole initiation ceremony. And my guru Maharaj is such a genius naming not only after Krishna but George too LOL!Well that makes me feel closer to both Krishna and George. Thank you Maharaj! Another good excuse to continue loving George. Everything else with karmi music wise I can give up on. But George is a DEVOTEE, so I can continue loving him and his music for the rest of my life if I want. :)
Thank you George for turning my life around and waking up my spirituality for Krishna. Haribol!
Guru Maharaj Knows Best
Many of you know that old saying "Mother knows best" or "Doctor knows best" But in my case most recently..."Guru Maharaj Knows Best."
I was just reading today in my guru Maharaj's blog that he had told one of the monks in Toronto, "You need some inspiration, go for a walk." Apparently my guru Maharaj read my mind yet again through his blog post without even having to tell me in person. Krishna really did pick out the right guru for me as I keep having so many realizations with my guru. The last blog post if I can remember correctly he had read my mind something about shyness and getting over it. He just knows me too well. He knows Im shy, I worry a lot, and knows when I need to get out and do some walking.
Its amazing how life changes when you are aspiring for a bona fide guru or after you take initiation from one. I read recently in a book by Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati Thakura, that all bona fide spiritual masters are sent by Lord Krishna from Vaikuntha to come here to teach people to awaken their spiritual conciousness. I guess that goes for me too. So this could mean that that is why my guru Maharaj already knows so much about me without even asking anything about me. Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati Thakura also said that Lord Krishna incarnates Himself in the heart to of the spiritual master since the spiritual master is preaching Krishna's message. That is another reason why I believe my guru Maharaj knows a lot about me. So Lord Krishna is present in the spiritual master.
So I did go out on a walk today up to Mandakini's house and then back which took a good half hour. I walked around the Palace of Gold and then back to the temple. So I got my walk in for the day. :) It was pretty hot outside but I did my best to ignore the heat. At least it was still pretty out with the sun being out for a change. It's supposed to rain again a lot next week hopefully not all day to squeeze in a walk.
I was just reading today in my guru Maharaj's blog that he had told one of the monks in Toronto, "You need some inspiration, go for a walk." Apparently my guru Maharaj read my mind yet again through his blog post without even having to tell me in person. Krishna really did pick out the right guru for me as I keep having so many realizations with my guru. The last blog post if I can remember correctly he had read my mind something about shyness and getting over it. He just knows me too well. He knows Im shy, I worry a lot, and knows when I need to get out and do some walking.
Its amazing how life changes when you are aspiring for a bona fide guru or after you take initiation from one. I read recently in a book by Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati Thakura, that all bona fide spiritual masters are sent by Lord Krishna from Vaikuntha to come here to teach people to awaken their spiritual conciousness. I guess that goes for me too. So this could mean that that is why my guru Maharaj already knows so much about me without even asking anything about me. Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati Thakura also said that Lord Krishna incarnates Himself in the heart to of the spiritual master since the spiritual master is preaching Krishna's message. That is another reason why I believe my guru Maharaj knows a lot about me. So Lord Krishna is present in the spiritual master.
So I did go out on a walk today up to Mandakini's house and then back which took a good half hour. I walked around the Palace of Gold and then back to the temple. So I got my walk in for the day. :) It was pretty hot outside but I did my best to ignore the heat. At least it was still pretty out with the sun being out for a change. It's supposed to rain again a lot next week hopefully not all day to squeeze in a walk.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Watch Your Step!
Today it was finally nice enough to go outside for a walk since it STILL continued to rain after the Festival of Inspiration. I went for a walk after lunch. i would have gone out before lunch but I was feeling a little too dizzy and my back was hurting me again so I waited until after lunch and i felt better to go out on a walk.
I only went for a short walk. It was sunny with clouds. The sun was going in and out of the clouds. And there was a nice breeze in the air. It was a bit humid too but not too bad. I decided to walk around the pond a few times since I now know that my guru Maharaj walked around it. It was easier to feel his presence there now walking that same path he did. I had finished the last five of my rounds on the walk.
As I was walking one of the matajis that I know lives here (I forgot her name) noticed me walking and she said "Taking a walk like your guru Maharaj instructed you to?" she asked
"Yes,"I said. "Sometime I can almost 'see' my guru Maharaj walking in front of me while Im on the walk."
I walked around about five or six times. The peacocks were out all over the place. A few of the male peacocks had all their feathers up. They are very pretty birds. Then by the cabins, I had to watch my step. I saw a catepillar crawling on the ground, and as I continued past the cabins, I saw even MORE catepillars on the ground. I bent down to pick one up gently to hold it. They sure are fuzzy little creatures. I put it gently back on the ground. I noticed along the way that there were some that were squished. Poor little things. They must have gotten run over by a car more than likely. Ants were also on the ground and I saw a centipede as well later on, and then a spider run past. Lots of living entities today I saw on the ground, even worm or two. Bugs like that like cool and moist places.
On my last time around I stopped by the pond to watch the swans for about ten or fifteen minutes. The baby swans were still all there. There are four of them. They are the cutest little things I've ever seen. They are learning to swim and feed themselves along with their parents who are carefully guarding them. I've always liked to watch animals as they are amazing creatures and why people would want to kill animals is beyond me.
But anyways it had been a peaceful day. I did receive a message from my guru Maharaj as well. He still wishes me to return to Toronto and he had instructed me to continue to serve and pray to Tulasi, fix the shoe rack and help Jaya Krishna the temple president in the meant time and also not to worry too much and do my best to be happy. So I am committed to follow his instructions. I know he means well and I know he only wants whats best for me to help me spiritually advance.
I only went for a short walk. It was sunny with clouds. The sun was going in and out of the clouds. And there was a nice breeze in the air. It was a bit humid too but not too bad. I decided to walk around the pond a few times since I now know that my guru Maharaj walked around it. It was easier to feel his presence there now walking that same path he did. I had finished the last five of my rounds on the walk.
As I was walking one of the matajis that I know lives here (I forgot her name) noticed me walking and she said "Taking a walk like your guru Maharaj instructed you to?" she asked
"Yes,"I said. "Sometime I can almost 'see' my guru Maharaj walking in front of me while Im on the walk."
I walked around about five or six times. The peacocks were out all over the place. A few of the male peacocks had all their feathers up. They are very pretty birds. Then by the cabins, I had to watch my step. I saw a catepillar crawling on the ground, and as I continued past the cabins, I saw even MORE catepillars on the ground. I bent down to pick one up gently to hold it. They sure are fuzzy little creatures. I put it gently back on the ground. I noticed along the way that there were some that were squished. Poor little things. They must have gotten run over by a car more than likely. Ants were also on the ground and I saw a centipede as well later on, and then a spider run past. Lots of living entities today I saw on the ground, even worm or two. Bugs like that like cool and moist places.
On my last time around I stopped by the pond to watch the swans for about ten or fifteen minutes. The baby swans were still all there. There are four of them. They are the cutest little things I've ever seen. They are learning to swim and feed themselves along with their parents who are carefully guarding them. I've always liked to watch animals as they are amazing creatures and why people would want to kill animals is beyond me.
But anyways it had been a peaceful day. I did receive a message from my guru Maharaj as well. He still wishes me to return to Toronto and he had instructed me to continue to serve and pray to Tulasi, fix the shoe rack and help Jaya Krishna the temple president in the meant time and also not to worry too much and do my best to be happy. So I am committed to follow his instructions. I know he means well and I know he only wants whats best for me to help me spiritually advance.
Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day
Wow, I can officially say that Christmas is no longer my favorite holiday like most people out in the world. Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day is my favorite holiday. He is the half man half lion incarnation of God who came to kill Hiranyakashipu who was a demon that threatened the world and his only young son Prahlad Maharaj.
Devotees had to fast all day until sunset for Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day. He is the divine protector of devotees. Many devotees have their owns experiences with Lord Nrsimahadeva. I hadn't had any yet. Probably because i am not that purified just yet to experience it. I've had experiences with Tulasi Devi though.
Anyways, there was a fire yajna held for Lord Nrsimahadeva, then in the evening around 6:30pm we had the blessing of Lord Nrsimahadeva to see Him being bathed by brahmanas. That was the most interesting experience I had that evening. The brahmanas then tossed the fruit garlands out to the guests and devotees. I got some raisins from one of the fruit garland and I think I got a grape. Boy those fruits sure were purifying! The Lord Himself wore those fruits. Then at 7:30pm the wait was officially over to see The Lord Himself appear. The temple lights were off, and when the curtain opened there were red and white flashing lights and you can hear Lord Nrsimahadeva's lion roar as if He were really coming out of the pillar to kill Hiranyakashipu. Eveyrone went wild including myself! I was literally screaming for Lord Nrsimahadeva! Then at the end of the kirtan the brahmanas tossed flowers from Lord Nrsimahadeva's garland and also sweets from His Lotus Foot to all the devotees. I caught five or six flowers and gave a few away but I kept three. That was fun catching Lord Nrsimahadeva's flowers in the air LOL! I felt like I was at a concert or something again whent the lights went out and Lord Nrsimahadeva appeared. It was so totally cool! This is why Christmas is no longer my favorite holiday. Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day is. :D
I cannot wait for Janmashtami now in Toronto! I'll be able to see Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha on that day! I know I'll go wild on that one too! I have to get a front row spot for that one. I may make a poster to hold up to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha on Janmashtami for Them to read! Boy Im getting ideas already for that. I gotta get some kind of gift for Them on Janmashtami! Im getting excited for that! Haribol!
Devotees had to fast all day until sunset for Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day. He is the divine protector of devotees. Many devotees have their owns experiences with Lord Nrsimahadeva. I hadn't had any yet. Probably because i am not that purified just yet to experience it. I've had experiences with Tulasi Devi though.
Anyways, there was a fire yajna held for Lord Nrsimahadeva, then in the evening around 6:30pm we had the blessing of Lord Nrsimahadeva to see Him being bathed by brahmanas. That was the most interesting experience I had that evening. The brahmanas then tossed the fruit garlands out to the guests and devotees. I got some raisins from one of the fruit garland and I think I got a grape. Boy those fruits sure were purifying! The Lord Himself wore those fruits. Then at 7:30pm the wait was officially over to see The Lord Himself appear. The temple lights were off, and when the curtain opened there were red and white flashing lights and you can hear Lord Nrsimahadeva's lion roar as if He were really coming out of the pillar to kill Hiranyakashipu. Eveyrone went wild including myself! I was literally screaming for Lord Nrsimahadeva! Then at the end of the kirtan the brahmanas tossed flowers from Lord Nrsimahadeva's garland and also sweets from His Lotus Foot to all the devotees. I caught five or six flowers and gave a few away but I kept three. That was fun catching Lord Nrsimahadeva's flowers in the air LOL! I felt like I was at a concert or something again whent the lights went out and Lord Nrsimahadeva appeared. It was so totally cool! This is why Christmas is no longer my favorite holiday. Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day is. :D
I cannot wait for Janmashtami now in Toronto! I'll be able to see Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha on that day! I know I'll go wild on that one too! I have to get a front row spot for that one. I may make a poster to hold up to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha on Janmashtami for Them to read! Boy Im getting ideas already for that. I gotta get some kind of gift for Them on Janmashtami! Im getting excited for that! Haribol!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
My Sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
Well I am missing Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha again. *sigh* It was also because Maharaj left to go back to Toronto today too. The pain of separation is almost unbearable. But for some reason Sri Sri Radha Vrndavan Chandra still want me here in New Vrndavan. I don't get it. Krishna knows what my desire is, but He's holding me back for now. Maybe He's trying to make me even more desparate for Him like He did with the Gopis when He went into hiding from them. Now I am also finding myself wanting a REALLY huge poster of Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha. I want to find a favorite outfit that I love seeing Them wear and make a big poster of that photo of Them.
I thought of another prayer for Sri Sri Radha Gopintha again.
My Sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
Why is it taking so long to return to Toronto to You?
Im so heartbroken about being away from You.
Oh Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha,
I now see You as my real parents.
My biological parents are divorced
And felt I had no one at that time.
But now You came to me
With love and let me into Your family.
I consider You, my sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
To be my real transcendental parents,
Because You are never separated from one another.
You have accepted me as Your daughter
During my initiation on Jan. 1st.
That's when my attachement grew for You.
Please my sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
Help me to return back to Toronto to You soon.
I am crying for You Both.
Im so homesick being away from You Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
Please hear my prayer!
I love You Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha!
I thought of another prayer for Sri Sri Radha Gopintha again.
Why is it taking so long to return to Toronto to You?
Im so heartbroken about being away from You.
Oh Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha,
I now see You as my real parents.
My biological parents are divorced
And felt I had no one at that time.
But now You came to me
With love and let me into Your family.
I consider You, my sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
To be my real transcendental parents,
Because You are never separated from one another.
You have accepted me as Your daughter
During my initiation on Jan. 1st.
That's when my attachement grew for You.
Please my sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
Help me to return back to Toronto to You soon.
I am crying for You Both.
Im so homesick being away from You Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
Please hear my prayer!
I love You Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha!
Last Day With Maharaj
Today was one of the hardest days of my life. Maharaj left at 12 noon today. Maharaj let me talk to him for a few minutes before he left. He did leave me some instructions and he even let me type his blog one more time. He instructed me to continue serving Tulasi Devi and fix up the shoe rack a bit. He also told me to get along with the authorities here which i do. I have no problems with them. Maharaj also told me that after Toronto's trip if all goes well to go to Miami. He said he'd talk with the devotees there into letting me stay there for the winter. We'll see how that goes.
Earlier before Maharaj left...I was feeling very strange like I was going to physically collapse. I didn't want him to leave. He knew I was terrified about him leaving. So he had ran into Jaya Krishna and asked him to look after me and also another devotee named Tulasi too. Maharaj knew I needed support.
Now Im finding myself BEGGING Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha to let me come back to Them. I will have to try and get a bus ticket to Buffalo. I HAVE to go to Toronto this week. I JUST HAVE to. Im feeling so homesick being away from Them as it is even more so now that Maharaj left this afternoon.
Tomorrow is Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day My favorite time of the year. hopefully that will help me ease the pain of separation from my guru Maharaj.
Earlier before Maharaj left...I was feeling very strange like I was going to physically collapse. I didn't want him to leave. He knew I was terrified about him leaving. So he had ran into Jaya Krishna and asked him to look after me and also another devotee named Tulasi too. Maharaj knew I needed support.
Now Im finding myself BEGGING Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha to let me come back to Them. I will have to try and get a bus ticket to Buffalo. I HAVE to go to Toronto this week. I JUST HAVE to. Im feeling so homesick being away from Them as it is even more so now that Maharaj left this afternoon.
Tomorrow is Lord Nrsimahadeva's Appearance Day My favorite time of the year. hopefully that will help me ease the pain of separation from my guru Maharaj.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Prayer to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha in Toronto
My prayer to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha (In Toronto)
My beloved Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
I was just taking darshan of You.
More and more You are capturing my heart.
Your outfits are so beautiful and attractive
That it makes me want to cry.
I feel the pain of separation from You
My sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
My heart just cries out to You.
Please help me to return to Toronto
To continue to serve You.
Please keep me in Your service always.
I am begging to do direct service for You
At Your temple in Toronto.
I miss seeing You in person Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha!
I love You so much Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
I've been thinking about You day and night
Even while my guru Maharaj is here.
Maharaj had told me that You are calling me back to You
And that You my dear sweet Srimate Radharani will take care of me.
Please let everything go well at the Canadian border for me to cross
And to come home to You! It is only by Your mercy Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
That you will make this arrangement for me to come to continue to serve you in Toronto.
All glories to You Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
Your humble maidservant
Hari Lila Devi Dasi
I was just taking darshan of You.
More and more You are capturing my heart.
Your outfits are so beautiful and attractive
That it makes me want to cry.
I feel the pain of separation from You
My sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
My heart just cries out to You.
Please help me to return to Toronto
To continue to serve You.
Please keep me in Your service always.
I am begging to do direct service for You
At Your temple in Toronto.
I miss seeing You in person Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha!
I love You so much Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
I've been thinking about You day and night
Even while my guru Maharaj is here.
Maharaj had told me that You are calling me back to You
And that You my dear sweet Srimate Radharani will take care of me.
Please let everything go well at the Canadian border for me to cross
And to come home to You! It is only by Your mercy Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha
That you will make this arrangement for me to come to continue to serve you in Toronto.
All glories to You Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
Your humble maidservant
Hari Lila Devi Dasi
Two Japa Walks Two Harinams
My guru Maharaj said something in his blog "Two by Two." I just experienced that this week transcendentally. I have absolutely LOVED all this association with my guru Maharaj. Krishna knew I need this association badly. He had allowed me to spend all this time by going out on japa walks with Maharaj and other devotees, and also on harinam twice!
The first japa walk we went on was up to where old vrndavan was where Srila Prabhupada used to stay, and there was an old mansion way up at the top of the hill where the orginial temple used to be in the 70's. I had never been up that way until Maharaj took us up there. We had gone on a three hour walk up there. we passed by Srila Prabhupada's old house. It was open and we went inside. There wasn't anything in it except a picture of Srila Prabhupada and a picture of Lord Jagganatha and an old flower garland hanging there. I could actually feel Srila Prabhupada's present there as if he was happy we had gone to see his house up there. My guru Maharaj was very sad to see the house in such bad shape because it was left abandoned and not preserved. I wish there was something I could do to help fix it up somehow. They could maybe make it into a tribute to Srila Prabhupada with parahanila so visitors can come up to visit it including the old temple in that mansion too. But they would first have to clear the path way up to the old mansion. The drive way is just over grown with grass and weeds, and there are too many tics in the woods as well. I'd be afraid to go up that way because of that. I hope that someday they will make a clearing for that. It would make my guru really happy to see Prabhupada's old house restored. But I guess they just don't have the money to do it yet. Srila Prabhupada really wanted seven temples here in New Vrndavan. I think they should attempt to remodle the old mansion and Srila Prabhupada's house a little to get started with that. Now that i think about this I feel sad too about it. Maharaj is right. It is such a shame to see such a spiritual historic place go to waste. I now know what he was feeling. If I was weathly I would donate a lot of money to help get that restored so that the guests who come here have more to see. It would really bring in more people and may help to make more devotees.
The second japa walk we went on the next day. Maharaj took us down to a place where they actually make ghee. It was a ghee factory. I had never seen it before. Now that is something to where I could walk to safely because devotees do go that way. It was pretty cool to see how they made ghee. Then Maharaj took us to see some cows. These cows are "aging cows" ones that cannot give milk anymore they keep the older cows there. Some of the cows were really pretty. I liked the black one with the horns. There were some bulls there too and a donkey as well. Why people would want to eat these creatures is beyond me. I always loved going to farms and seeing animals run around but it sad out in the material world where there are slaughter houses and they kill these poor animals for people to eat. I DO NOT believe that God put those animals here for us to eat. That is WRONG. No where in the bible does God say he put those animals here for us to eat. It's just cruelty by human beings alone. They were the ones that said this not God. God cares for all living beings including animals like cows pigs and chickens. I think chickens are cute and cows too. Why would people want to eat these poor creatures?
They have feelings too like humans do but unfortunately not everyone believes in that. :(
After we went to the ghee factory we stopped at this very old and very small cemetary on the way back to the temple. Maharaj led us into the old cemetary by our temple. We sat in a circle and had a small kirtan. Then Maharaj gave us a little lecture on about how difficult it is to control our sense gratifications. Then Maharaj had picked a dandelion that had the white seeds on it. One devotee told him he had to make a wish with it. So Maharaj blew the white seeds at us and he said "I wish for you all to become great devotees." And then Maharaj had tossed the dandelion stem at my forehead which I took as his blessing and mercy to me. I felt purified with him doing that.
But I had a very nice two days on those japa walks. Maharaj sure does know how to take us out on an adventure and give us a good work out at the same time. That was the longest japa walk I've ever been on with Maharaj the other day on that three hour one and I enjoyed it even though it was difficult for me to walk up those steep hills.
Then we had two harinams. The first harinam was awesome. We walked along the streets of downtown Wheeling by the Ohio River. It was pretty ecstatic too. We stopped by this circle where there were benches and stayed there for awhile singing and dancing to the Holy Name. I danced like crazy and when maharaj motioned toward me to dance in the middle of the circle I did without hesitation. I didn't feel shy at all because this was maharaj leading the kirtan and when he leads kirtan I get BLISSED out big time It just felt soo good to hear him sing. I love how he sings. He's got a great singing voice. He sings a lot better than my favorite karmi musicians so now I only want to hear Maharaj lead kirtan and i don't want to hear any other musician except George of course because Maharaj told me not to put him away since he brought me to Krishna. George is the only one I will NEVER give up on. Everything else I can. But anyways, somehow or other I gotta get a voice recorder and record Maharaj's kirtans and lectures so I have something to listen to, especially while he's away so I don't feel too much separation from him. It is very painful being separated from my guru while he's away. At the end of the kirtan Maharaj had blessed us by sprinkling water on all of us. Krishna has been so kind to us to letting Maharaj come with us on harinam.
Then the second harinam we went on was a bit quieter as we had fewer devotees. The first harinam we had about 40 devotees. but it was still fun to spend time with Maharaj on the harinam. Someone had actually played a violin for the harinam which I thought was pretty cool. Maharaj really liked that too. He had us walk in two lines two by two. On this harinam I had a realization. I told my friend Mandakini to watch Maharaj's lotus feet while he's walking because if we follow Maharaj's lotus feet, he will lead us back home to Krishna. :D I told Maharaj this and he smiled. Then at the end of the kirtan I joked around by sayng "One more time!!" And then Maharaj said jokingly "Okay lets go back" lol! I really did want to continue the harinam but we did have to go back to the temple. I hated it to end.
Maharaj has been so merciful. And he is still allowing me to serve him. I feel so loyal and dedicated to my guru Maharaj. I thanked him again today for allowing me to serve him. I enjoy it very much and it makes me happy to see him happy. I am going to continue to try and enjoy as much association with Maharaj while he's here in New Vrndavan and just relish it all.
The first japa walk we went on was up to where old vrndavan was where Srila Prabhupada used to stay, and there was an old mansion way up at the top of the hill where the orginial temple used to be in the 70's. I had never been up that way until Maharaj took us up there. We had gone on a three hour walk up there. we passed by Srila Prabhupada's old house. It was open and we went inside. There wasn't anything in it except a picture of Srila Prabhupada and a picture of Lord Jagganatha and an old flower garland hanging there. I could actually feel Srila Prabhupada's present there as if he was happy we had gone to see his house up there. My guru Maharaj was very sad to see the house in such bad shape because it was left abandoned and not preserved. I wish there was something I could do to help fix it up somehow. They could maybe make it into a tribute to Srila Prabhupada with parahanila so visitors can come up to visit it including the old temple in that mansion too. But they would first have to clear the path way up to the old mansion. The drive way is just over grown with grass and weeds, and there are too many tics in the woods as well. I'd be afraid to go up that way because of that. I hope that someday they will make a clearing for that. It would make my guru really happy to see Prabhupada's old house restored. But I guess they just don't have the money to do it yet. Srila Prabhupada really wanted seven temples here in New Vrndavan. I think they should attempt to remodle the old mansion and Srila Prabhupada's house a little to get started with that. Now that i think about this I feel sad too about it. Maharaj is right. It is such a shame to see such a spiritual historic place go to waste. I now know what he was feeling. If I was weathly I would donate a lot of money to help get that restored so that the guests who come here have more to see. It would really bring in more people and may help to make more devotees.
The second japa walk we went on the next day. Maharaj took us down to a place where they actually make ghee. It was a ghee factory. I had never seen it before. Now that is something to where I could walk to safely because devotees do go that way. It was pretty cool to see how they made ghee. Then Maharaj took us to see some cows. These cows are "aging cows" ones that cannot give milk anymore they keep the older cows there. Some of the cows were really pretty. I liked the black one with the horns. There were some bulls there too and a donkey as well. Why people would want to eat these creatures is beyond me. I always loved going to farms and seeing animals run around but it sad out in the material world where there are slaughter houses and they kill these poor animals for people to eat. I DO NOT believe that God put those animals here for us to eat. That is WRONG. No where in the bible does God say he put those animals here for us to eat. It's just cruelty by human beings alone. They were the ones that said this not God. God cares for all living beings including animals like cows pigs and chickens. I think chickens are cute and cows too. Why would people want to eat these poor creatures?
They have feelings too like humans do but unfortunately not everyone believes in that. :(
After we went to the ghee factory we stopped at this very old and very small cemetary on the way back to the temple. Maharaj led us into the old cemetary by our temple. We sat in a circle and had a small kirtan. Then Maharaj gave us a little lecture on about how difficult it is to control our sense gratifications. Then Maharaj had picked a dandelion that had the white seeds on it. One devotee told him he had to make a wish with it. So Maharaj blew the white seeds at us and he said "I wish for you all to become great devotees." And then Maharaj had tossed the dandelion stem at my forehead which I took as his blessing and mercy to me. I felt purified with him doing that.
But I had a very nice two days on those japa walks. Maharaj sure does know how to take us out on an adventure and give us a good work out at the same time. That was the longest japa walk I've ever been on with Maharaj the other day on that three hour one and I enjoyed it even though it was difficult for me to walk up those steep hills.
Then we had two harinams. The first harinam was awesome. We walked along the streets of downtown Wheeling by the Ohio River. It was pretty ecstatic too. We stopped by this circle where there were benches and stayed there for awhile singing and dancing to the Holy Name. I danced like crazy and when maharaj motioned toward me to dance in the middle of the circle I did without hesitation. I didn't feel shy at all because this was maharaj leading the kirtan and when he leads kirtan I get BLISSED out big time It just felt soo good to hear him sing. I love how he sings. He's got a great singing voice. He sings a lot better than my favorite karmi musicians so now I only want to hear Maharaj lead kirtan and i don't want to hear any other musician except George of course because Maharaj told me not to put him away since he brought me to Krishna. George is the only one I will NEVER give up on. Everything else I can. But anyways, somehow or other I gotta get a voice recorder and record Maharaj's kirtans and lectures so I have something to listen to, especially while he's away so I don't feel too much separation from him. It is very painful being separated from my guru while he's away. At the end of the kirtan Maharaj had blessed us by sprinkling water on all of us. Krishna has been so kind to us to letting Maharaj come with us on harinam.
Then the second harinam we went on was a bit quieter as we had fewer devotees. The first harinam we had about 40 devotees. but it was still fun to spend time with Maharaj on the harinam. Someone had actually played a violin for the harinam which I thought was pretty cool. Maharaj really liked that too. He had us walk in two lines two by two. On this harinam I had a realization. I told my friend Mandakini to watch Maharaj's lotus feet while he's walking because if we follow Maharaj's lotus feet, he will lead us back home to Krishna. :D I told Maharaj this and he smiled. Then at the end of the kirtan I joked around by sayng "One more time!!" And then Maharaj said jokingly "Okay lets go back" lol! I really did want to continue the harinam but we did have to go back to the temple. I hated it to end.
Maharaj has been so merciful. And he is still allowing me to serve him. I feel so loyal and dedicated to my guru Maharaj. I thanked him again today for allowing me to serve him. I enjoy it very much and it makes me happy to see him happy. I am going to continue to try and enjoy as much association with Maharaj while he's here in New Vrndavan and just relish it all.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Festival of Inspiration
Wow the weekend was incredible! The best weekend I had ever had in my life. I had my first hand experience in what the Festival of Inspiration is really like.
Friday morning I woke up so early at 2:15am. I was restless all night and only got three hours of sleep. I was just all excited about my guru Maharaj coming to stay for the week. I was so happy when I saw him that morning. I was just about to go out on a japa walk when he pulled up in the van! I gave him a flower garland and some offered tulasi leaves from the Lord's lotus feet. The minute I saw him I bowed down at his lotus feet and offered him my respectful obeisances. I helped Maharaj bring in his bag and then we all went to take a look at the stage where his drama play was to be held. A few of my godbrothers and godsisters came to the festival and other devotees from Cleveland and Toronto came. It made me feel like I was both in Cleveland and Toronto with all of them here. Krishna was merciful to me this weekend. All that good association. And then afterwards when Maharaj got settled in a little he took Sing Lung and I out on a very brief japa walk around the pond. I was already blissed out. Maharaj told me the other day "you are aways blissful."
Saturday was awesome too. I watched all the drama rehearsals. It was interesting how Maharaj directed the play and how he trains the actors into doing what they are supposed to do. Maharaj had said in his blog he felt guilty about being so hard on some of the actors. But I look at it as you have to be hard sometimes in order to get the actors to do what they have to do otherwise it may not get done. Professional directors are probably hard on their actors too. So now I have a feel of what it is like to be in Maharaj's drama play. Although I'd be kind of scared to be in it as I dont' want to commit an offense to him by making a mistake in the play. Im very careful about how I serve Maharaj with devotion.
Sunday was probably the best. The drama play was just so cool and funny! The Three Lives of Bharata I think is one of my favorite plays by Maharaj and also The Boatman too is really funny. The costumes were really cool too. My favorite part in the play I think was when the two brahmacaries ran into each other and the basket of rice flew high in the air. And I also loved the part where the one bramharcari was teaching his brother how to put on a dhoti and sacred thread. I love my guru maharaj's plays. I only want to see his drama plays and not these other mundane plays that people would see normally everyday.
Then on Sunday after the play there was just so much mercy from Krishna Himself. Krishna knew how much I really wanted to surrender my services to my guru Maharaj. I was able to serve him some maha fruit and also lunch as well. And the best service he allowed me to do was ironing his clothes. I seriously wanted to cry when I was doing that. Maharaj is kind to me to allow me to serve him like this. And I enjoy helping to take very good care of him and making sure he has everything he needs. It makes me happy to see him happy. Then later in the afternoon I sat with some devotees and Maharaj outside for hours on end. That was the best association I've had. And then later in Govinda's Maharaj got pizza for everybody! He really is wonderful. Im so happy Krishna chose him to be my guru. He knew I needed someone like him to guide and inspire me so much. Krishna must have been pleased to allow me to have all this association with my guru. I hope I can continue to please Krishna.
I was sad to see the devotees of Toronto and Cleveland leave. :( I had so much fun with them this weekend. I hope all goes well at the border in Canada so that I can see the Toronto devotees again. I told Maharaj that I miss Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha and he said that they are calling me back to Them and that They too miss me as well. I really do miss my sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
But overall the festival was fantastic. I hope I can come again next year with maharaj and the toronto devotees.
Friday morning I woke up so early at 2:15am. I was restless all night and only got three hours of sleep. I was just all excited about my guru Maharaj coming to stay for the week. I was so happy when I saw him that morning. I was just about to go out on a japa walk when he pulled up in the van! I gave him a flower garland and some offered tulasi leaves from the Lord's lotus feet. The minute I saw him I bowed down at his lotus feet and offered him my respectful obeisances. I helped Maharaj bring in his bag and then we all went to take a look at the stage where his drama play was to be held. A few of my godbrothers and godsisters came to the festival and other devotees from Cleveland and Toronto came. It made me feel like I was both in Cleveland and Toronto with all of them here. Krishna was merciful to me this weekend. All that good association. And then afterwards when Maharaj got settled in a little he took Sing Lung and I out on a very brief japa walk around the pond. I was already blissed out. Maharaj told me the other day "you are aways blissful."
Saturday was awesome too. I watched all the drama rehearsals. It was interesting how Maharaj directed the play and how he trains the actors into doing what they are supposed to do. Maharaj had said in his blog he felt guilty about being so hard on some of the actors. But I look at it as you have to be hard sometimes in order to get the actors to do what they have to do otherwise it may not get done. Professional directors are probably hard on their actors too. So now I have a feel of what it is like to be in Maharaj's drama play. Although I'd be kind of scared to be in it as I dont' want to commit an offense to him by making a mistake in the play. Im very careful about how I serve Maharaj with devotion.
Sunday was probably the best. The drama play was just so cool and funny! The Three Lives of Bharata I think is one of my favorite plays by Maharaj and also The Boatman too is really funny. The costumes were really cool too. My favorite part in the play I think was when the two brahmacaries ran into each other and the basket of rice flew high in the air. And I also loved the part where the one bramharcari was teaching his brother how to put on a dhoti and sacred thread. I love my guru maharaj's plays. I only want to see his drama plays and not these other mundane plays that people would see normally everyday.
Then on Sunday after the play there was just so much mercy from Krishna Himself. Krishna knew how much I really wanted to surrender my services to my guru Maharaj. I was able to serve him some maha fruit and also lunch as well. And the best service he allowed me to do was ironing his clothes. I seriously wanted to cry when I was doing that. Maharaj is kind to me to allow me to serve him like this. And I enjoy helping to take very good care of him and making sure he has everything he needs. It makes me happy to see him happy. Then later in the afternoon I sat with some devotees and Maharaj outside for hours on end. That was the best association I've had. And then later in Govinda's Maharaj got pizza for everybody! He really is wonderful. Im so happy Krishna chose him to be my guru. He knew I needed someone like him to guide and inspire me so much. Krishna must have been pleased to allow me to have all this association with my guru. I hope I can continue to please Krishna.
I was sad to see the devotees of Toronto and Cleveland leave. :( I had so much fun with them this weekend. I hope all goes well at the border in Canada so that I can see the Toronto devotees again. I told Maharaj that I miss Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha and he said that they are calling me back to Them and that They too miss me as well. I really do miss my sweet Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha.
But overall the festival was fantastic. I hope I can come again next year with maharaj and the toronto devotees.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Omg Im So Nervous!!!!!!!!
All of a sudden when I went to go do the Deity plate transfer tonight, I suddenly felt very nervous. I was shaking all over. It could be both nerves and excitement of this weekend. I just don't know. It felt like I was running back and forth doing service trying to calm my nerves! How will I sleep tonight? omg. So many of my godbrothers and godsisters are coming including my guru Maharaj.
I'm still trying to prepare myself for Maharaj's arrival. I think that is the major reason why Im feeling so nervous. I have not seen him in two months. Im still shaking like a leaf right now. Maybe I'll get myself a sprite soda or something to calm me down. Im like high strung right now and so jumpy. I just hope to Krishna Im not going to be in tears when I see Maharaj. Because Maharaj has been so very kind to me. I feel so restless and can't seem to sit down! I know the minute I see him I'd be falling at his lotus feet offering him obeisances. Omg Im so nervous I feel like Im going to cry! I hope I can fall asleep tonight. But that is going to be difficult!
I'm still trying to prepare myself for Maharaj's arrival. I think that is the major reason why Im feeling so nervous. I have not seen him in two months. Im still shaking like a leaf right now. Maybe I'll get myself a sprite soda or something to calm me down. Im like high strung right now and so jumpy. I just hope to Krishna Im not going to be in tears when I see Maharaj. Because Maharaj has been so very kind to me. I feel so restless and can't seem to sit down! I know the minute I see him I'd be falling at his lotus feet offering him obeisances. Omg Im so nervous I feel like Im going to cry! I hope I can fall asleep tonight. But that is going to be difficult!
Big Weekend Ahead
Tomorrow the festival of inspiration begins! I am preparing myself for it. I hope I am not going to have a hard time sleeping tonight as i did earlier this week. My guru Maharaj and godbrothers and godsisters will be here tomorrow. My guru will probably be here around 2am in the morning. I plan on getting myself up early just in case he goes into the temple room at 3am so that I can give him a garland.I have to get the garland tonight and also two more for one of my godbrothers and godsisters. And Im glad there is still offered Tulasi leaves too that I can give to my guru Maharaj since he does not eat maha sweets.
Today I kept myself busy in the pujari room for three hours. I still need to squeeze in another three hours of service somehow or other. I'll probably go back into the pujari room a bit later Im just taking a break for lunch. I did a lot of cleaning in the pujari room this morning. I try to save a bit of cleaning everyday so that I don't run out of things to do. I hope the authorities bought some wood polish so that I can do some wood polishing in the pujari room and temple room. I'll have to see Bhaktin Shannon sometime later today about the wood polish. Maybe I can do some this evening if they bought some, while I wait to do the Deity plate transfer.
There are three huge tents outside ready to use. One swami had arrived this morning. The others will probably be here tomorrow including mine. I hope my Guru Maharaj will lead kirtan tomorrow morning. Oh boy will that be a party in Krishna's house lol! Like I said before its like waiting to see your favorite rock band in concert on this is 1000 times better because it's free, transcendental and a lot of fun! What better way to spend the weekend than to hear your guru Maharaj sing the Holy Name of Krishna in the temple room? That is pure nectar! I just wish I had a video voice recorder to record his kirtans so that I can listen to them everyday. But when I go back to Canada I'll get one just for that purpose.
There are lots of other activities going ont this weekend during the festivals. There will be plenty of transcendental lectures, and activities for childeren. My guru Maharaj will present a drama play called The Three Lives of Bharata which I have seen already but I'd love to see it again as it is so funny! I love my guru's drama plays. Also the other Swamis will be doing some sort of presentations. Not sure what those are. Radhanatha Swami will also be here. I never met him before. He is very very popular and has many disciples. I haven't read too much about him, I felt much too connected to my own guru Maharaj. They say that you'll know who your aspiring guru is if you are looking for one and that is the truth as I had first hand experience with that. Krishna's been so merciful to me by allowing me to search out only once for a guru. I hope other bhaktas and bhaktins out there will take initiation from their guru maharaj or find a guru right for them.
I plan on helping my guru Maharaj as much as I can while he's here. Especially with his drama play I know he will need some help. Im happy I'll be plenty busy this weekend and also have fun at the same time. It's all in good fun doing service for Krishna's devotees this weekend and everyday. I still pray and hope my friend Dayal will come along with Konstantine and Kaustubha das on Sunday. A few other Cleveland devotees are coming too. I'll be hanging out with them this weekend for sure.
I just hope the weather won't ruin this entire weekend as it is supposed to rain. Hopefully it will only rain lightly thens stop and clear up. Today is beautiful outside. Just the right temperature and it's sunny. It looks pretty here when it's sunny outside.
Well the count down for the festival of inspiration is down to the final hours! Got to get myself ready!Hare Krishna
Today I kept myself busy in the pujari room for three hours. I still need to squeeze in another three hours of service somehow or other. I'll probably go back into the pujari room a bit later Im just taking a break for lunch. I did a lot of cleaning in the pujari room this morning. I try to save a bit of cleaning everyday so that I don't run out of things to do. I hope the authorities bought some wood polish so that I can do some wood polishing in the pujari room and temple room. I'll have to see Bhaktin Shannon sometime later today about the wood polish. Maybe I can do some this evening if they bought some, while I wait to do the Deity plate transfer.
There are three huge tents outside ready to use. One swami had arrived this morning. The others will probably be here tomorrow including mine. I hope my Guru Maharaj will lead kirtan tomorrow morning. Oh boy will that be a party in Krishna's house lol! Like I said before its like waiting to see your favorite rock band in concert on this is 1000 times better because it's free, transcendental and a lot of fun! What better way to spend the weekend than to hear your guru Maharaj sing the Holy Name of Krishna in the temple room? That is pure nectar! I just wish I had a video voice recorder to record his kirtans so that I can listen to them everyday. But when I go back to Canada I'll get one just for that purpose.
There are lots of other activities going ont this weekend during the festivals. There will be plenty of transcendental lectures, and activities for childeren. My guru Maharaj will present a drama play called The Three Lives of Bharata which I have seen already but I'd love to see it again as it is so funny! I love my guru's drama plays. Also the other Swamis will be doing some sort of presentations. Not sure what those are. Radhanatha Swami will also be here. I never met him before. He is very very popular and has many disciples. I haven't read too much about him, I felt much too connected to my own guru Maharaj. They say that you'll know who your aspiring guru is if you are looking for one and that is the truth as I had first hand experience with that. Krishna's been so merciful to me by allowing me to search out only once for a guru. I hope other bhaktas and bhaktins out there will take initiation from their guru maharaj or find a guru right for them.
I plan on helping my guru Maharaj as much as I can while he's here. Especially with his drama play I know he will need some help. Im happy I'll be plenty busy this weekend and also have fun at the same time. It's all in good fun doing service for Krishna's devotees this weekend and everyday. I still pray and hope my friend Dayal will come along with Konstantine and Kaustubha das on Sunday. A few other Cleveland devotees are coming too. I'll be hanging out with them this weekend for sure.
I just hope the weather won't ruin this entire weekend as it is supposed to rain. Hopefully it will only rain lightly thens stop and clear up. Today is beautiful outside. Just the right temperature and it's sunny. It looks pretty here when it's sunny outside.
Well the count down for the festival of inspiration is down to the final hours! Got to get myself ready!Hare Krishna
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Radha KsiraChor Gopinatha
I am finding myself missing Radha KsiraChor Gopinatha in Toronto. I don't know what happened but i found myself saving a bunch of photos of Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha from Iskcon Toronto's facebook page. They just looked so beautiful that I nearly cried. My heart is aching to go back to Them as soon as possible. I miss serving Them a lot. I know that when I do go back to Them, I'll be sitting in the temple room with them for a long time thanking them over and over for bringing me back. I know They are merciful. I think maybe They wanted me here in New Vrndavan for awhile to help my guru Maharaj.
I will never forget how Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha looked on my initiation. They were wearing red and green. Krishna's face was painted beautifully. And Radharani's hair was decorated with beautiful flowers. My godbrother Ramachandra das took a photo of Them. Here is the picture below of what They looked like on my initiation day.
I will never forget how Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha looked on my initiation. They were wearing red and green. Krishna's face was painted beautifully. And Radharani's hair was decorated with beautiful flowers. My godbrother Ramachandra das took a photo of Them. Here is the picture below of what They looked like on my initiation day.
Im still going over the phots of Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha. I can't seem to stop looking at Their photos. And I want to see a lot more so that I can meditate on Them. I hope when I go back to the temple in Toronto I can do alot more service for Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha. Not sure what else I can do. Maybe Maharaj will have some other service for me too when I go back. I can ask him in two days when he arrives here in New Vrndavan. Doing service for Maharaj here in New Vrndavan will also be my service to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha, because Maharaj is very very dear to Them. I'd love to be a pujari for Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha one day too. We'll see what happens in the long run in what Krishna's got planned for me.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Praising Krishna!
Wow. Im just blissed out today. When I logged in to check my email this morning I read on yahoo that Osama bin Laden the terrorist who killed so many people in America on Sept. 11th 2001 had died by the hands of the US military. But it was really Krishna who had sent them to do this. It had reminded me of the time when Krishna went to go kill Kamsa the demon who was torturing the residents of Vrndavan and disturbing the peace. Kamsa had ruled that kingdom for years, until when Krishna grew old enough he came to kill him. So i feel after 10 years now that Bin Laden is gone, Krishna had came again to destroy demons and I feel this is a sign that He will personally see that the rest of the terrorist are punished! There is a verse in the Bhagavad Gita Ch. 4 Text 8 Krishna says
"To deliver the pious and to annihilate the miscreants, as well as to establish the principles of religion, I Myself appear, millennium after millenium."
That prooves right there that Krishna had done this for a reason with that very terrorist. He stopped him before he could do anymore damage to the world as there are devotees in it that Krishna wishes to protect. Krishna says His devotee never parishes. But the demons will for their act of to the world
Also we just had a fire yagna yesterday for Lord Nrsimahadeva to make His appearance day very auspicious. I think it also could have been Lord Nrisimahadeva that put an end to that terrorist demon's threat before he could do anymore harm to the world and His devotees. It's interesting how things all fall into place. We may not physically see the Lord personally but spiritually He is attacking all the demons in this world. They will be punished eventually, maybe not right away but they will! I wrote a prayer to Krishna this morning praising Him.
My prayer to Lord Krishna
O Lord Krishna
I offer my respectful obeisances unto You.
You gave me realization today
After I heard about Osama Bin Laden being killed.
He was a great terrorist demon who was just like Kamsa your maternal uncle.
The story is so simliar of when You had killed Kamsa
You stopped this terrorist demon before he could do anymore damage.
I believe You stopped Him because You knew that if You didn't,
He would harm Your devotees and the rest of the world by his sinful activities.
You do not let these demon terrorists get away with it.
You punish them as You wish!
O Lord Krishna I wish I could shower endless buckets of flowers unto You
For protecting us from that demon.
I do not thank President Obama or the US military for doing this
But I thank YOU Krishna for SENDING them to destroy this demon
And by Your powers alone You helped to destroy that demon terrorist.
I believe this is a sign that You will vanquish the rest of the demon terrorists in this world
All glories to You Lord Krishna, The Supreme Personality of Godhead!
"To deliver the pious and to annihilate the miscreants, as well as to establish the principles of religion, I Myself appear, millennium after millenium."
That prooves right there that Krishna had done this for a reason with that very terrorist. He stopped him before he could do anymore damage to the world as there are devotees in it that Krishna wishes to protect. Krishna says His devotee never parishes. But the demons will for their act of to the world
Also we just had a fire yagna yesterday for Lord Nrsimahadeva to make His appearance day very auspicious. I think it also could have been Lord Nrisimahadeva that put an end to that terrorist demon's threat before he could do anymore harm to the world and His devotees. It's interesting how things all fall into place. We may not physically see the Lord personally but spiritually He is attacking all the demons in this world. They will be punished eventually, maybe not right away but they will! I wrote a prayer to Krishna this morning praising Him.
My prayer to Lord Krishna
O Lord Krishna
I offer my respectful obeisances unto You.
You gave me realization today
After I heard about Osama Bin Laden being killed.
He was a great terrorist demon who was just like Kamsa your maternal uncle.
The story is so simliar of when You had killed Kamsa
You stopped this terrorist demon before he could do anymore damage.
I believe You stopped Him because You knew that if You didn't,
He would harm Your devotees and the rest of the world by his sinful activities.
You do not let these demon terrorists get away with it.
You punish them as You wish!
O Lord Krishna I wish I could shower endless buckets of flowers unto You
For protecting us from that demon.
I do not thank President Obama or the US military for doing this
But I thank YOU Krishna for SENDING them to destroy this demon
And by Your powers alone You helped to destroy that demon terrorist.
I believe this is a sign that You will vanquish the rest of the demon terrorists in this world
All glories to You Lord Krishna, The Supreme Personality of Godhead!
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