Wow I am actually stumped. What does Krishna wish me to do? Does He wish me to stay here in LA and serve Him or back in Toronto?
I had spoken with th head pujari here. He said if I get second initiation by the end of this year, he would train me for two years on the altar. So I had to email Maharaj about this. I am unsure how he would feel about this idea as he said before in the beginning he wanted me to come back to Toronto.
Krishna's arrangements will eventually fall into place...He is just leaving me in suspense for awhile about my future spiritual life. And it also means more surrender as well. I believe the more I surrender unto Him the more He will show me what He wants me to do for Him. My desire is still there to serve Him on the altar and of course my other new desire is to get better at book distribution as well. My guru Mahraj was very pleased when I told him about my sankirtan experiences. So I will try to keep doing my best for him, Srila Prabhupada, and Krishna.
I will just have to sit tight and let Krishna take the wheel of my spiritual life in how He wants me to advance or surrender more. I hope He will reveal to me in what He wants me to do.
