Its been awhile since my last post. I had to get my computer fixed to use the internet again.
Things have been tough lately at the temple. Everyone seems to be uptight but then again we are short handed on help and perhaps that is why.
This morning things didn't go so well. I got chatised again about the wash clothes in the pujari room by this same pujari who keeps on nip picking at me everyday about something. I'm trying my best to tolerate it but it's very very difficult. I do take things a bit too personally but that's just how I am with that. I have been bullied by kids in school, nip picked the same way at my last job, and went through verbal abuse with my parents, so it's hard for me NOT to take things so personal. I don't know if I'll ever get over that stage yet. I emailed my spiritual master Bhaktimarga Swami about it and asked him what I should do. I had promised him I'd follow his instructions the best I can. In the Bhagavatam Class today the speaker explained that the spiritual master is pretty much nondifferent from Krishna since the spiritual master is giving instruction on how to come home to Krishna just like Krishna instructed Arjuna. So I'm trying to follow that the best I can.
In two days is the day that George Harrison left this material world. That day will be hard for all of us George fans. For me it still hurts, and I'm trying so hard not to lament about it. Hopefully being in the temple will help chase the sadness away. The other day I had felt George's presence. He's still very much around. But I still cringe about that day whenever someone says Nov. 29th. I set up my small tribute for George last night. I put a purple cloth underneath George's picture. It's in a white frame. I also put a flower garland around his picture as well. I'm going to try to do extra service or chant more if I can on that day. It all depends on how I'm feeling. I'll always remember George for how he had changed my life around.
