Well yesterday afternoon another realization hit me in the head. I sat in Govinda's taking over for my godbrother Deva Datta in watching the restaurant. And then afterwards I went to take rest for an hour as I was tired and my back was hurting me.
So it was around 5pm that this realization came to me. I was finishing the last of my rounds. I had about three left to finish. About ten minutes after I had finished my last round, Maharaj pages me on the temple's phone. He had some more service for me to do for him. He wanted me to answer some emails for him. The Hare Krishna Maha Mantra means that one is asking to stay in Krishna's pure devotional service to Him. So it hit me then after 10 minutes of finishing my last round was when Maharaj needed me to do that service for him. So I believe Krishna answered me quickly in doing service for Him and His exalted devotee.
Also before I came back to Toronto, Krishna knew how much I wanted to serve Him in the temple there in His form as Sri Sri Radha KsiraCora Gopinatha. I felt like I had gone through withdrawl there for the past three months I had been gone from Their temple. So I had not only Maharaj come to me asking me to do seva but few other devotees as well. Im sitting here thinking, Sri Sri Radha KsiraCora Gopinatha have been so incredibly kind to me in fulling my desire in wanting to serve Them. I believe the more service I can do for Them the more I can become attached to Them.I already feel very attached to Sri Sri Radha KsiraCora Gopinatha. The thing I have to train myself with, is when the time comes for me to head back to the United States is that They are always with me. I have gotten a couple of pictures to take with me so hopefully always keeping a picture of Sri Sri Radha KsiraCora Gopinatha will help ease the pain of separation from Them. Although Krishna increases the pain of separation to force us to think of Him more and surrender more to Him.
But the main point of it all is, I believe Krishna had heard me chanting His Holy Name and answered me quickly. I am so suprised that He answered a fallen soul and rascal like me. Im such a sinful person, but yet Krishna is still kind and allows me to serve His devotees. :) Krishna knows everything, He can see everything and read our minds and hearts before we even do something. I know whatever we do in this life is due to our past karma in our past lives. He knows we are prone to make mistakes in our Bhakti, because we are conditioned. But if we chant sincerly He will answer and He will hear you like He did with me this afternoon. I hope this will help my conciousness even more. I pray to Krishna to continue letting me get realizations like this to help me surrender more unto Him. :) I also pray that other devotees like myself will also experience this of Krishna actually hearing them chant His Names and then He will respond to them.
