This morning looked like it was going to rain so I stayed indoors. I went to Mangal Aarti on time as my guru Maharaj expects his disciples to always be on time for Mangal Aarti. Although I had a bit of a hard time this morning due to my back hurting me once again. I don't know if it's because of the weather change or what but my back's been in pain for the last few days. I've been trying to do some walking around to help it. But after I had picked flowers today for Krishna my back was still hurting me. But I had to do my service for Krishna by picking flowers for Him.
So I had gone to pick flowers after lunch today. The skies had cleared up and it was sunny. It's very pretty here when it's warm and sunny outside. Yesterday was so windy and was hard to do my service but I still did it. You can even smell the flowers in the air here when the wind picks up. But later in the afternoon it clouded over again I was kind of disappointed. It looked so pretty with the sun out.
Later in the day I went to help Sachi Kripa clean out her room in the ashram. She stays there during the winter time and now she's going back to her apartment down the street. We had spoken about Lord Jagganatha a bit. I told her how Lord Jagganatha appeared to me out of no where while I was in California skiing with my father. I told her I was in the locker room before me and my father went out skiing and I saw a sticker of Lord Jaggantha on the locker. The Lord knew I was aching to see Him so He miraculously appeared on that locker. I spotted Him right away and it had brought a smile to my face. I also took it as the Lord was pleased that I was still thinking of Him as I was doing something that was not Krishna Conciousness like skiing.
I had also chatted with my godsister Nitai Priya on facebook today. She left a message on her status saying that they had three blizzards in one day up in Toronto yesterday! I guess I still need to bring my winter coat up there if I do go back to Toronto. I had asked her if Maharaj ever gone walking in a blizzard or heavy snow like that and she said yes. Maharaj just amazes me. I don't know if I could ever walk as far or as in such treacherous weather like he has! Although I do my best to be inspired by that. But I do have to be careful with my shoes as they are not in great shape for wet weather. I have to buy a pair of boots too somehow. Toronto is going to have a late spring I guess. So I am going to try to enjoy the weather here in New Vrndavan before heading back to the cold again. Or maybe it will be warmed up by the time if I do get back.
So I've been trying to have the spring weather distract me from worrying about my trip back to Toronto soon. It's hard not to worry about it due to the stressful experience I had trying to get back before. I felt as though I'd been traumatized by that experience at the border and Im still trying to recover from it. I think being outdoors like Maharaj suggested will do me good and clear my head. If it's another nice day outside I think I'll take my books with me and sit by the pond and read for awhile. I hope Krishna will let it be a nice sunny day tomorrow.
