I had received an email reply from my guru Maharaj today. I had told him I was afraid of maya trying to find her way in my spiritual life. She still does but she is having difficulty now I am sure becasue I am being stubborn with her or at least trying to be so that i stay focused more on Krishna.
But it's when Im out on book distribution is where my fear of maya comes in. Especially if I run into someone who is completely attached to speaking only of Jesus and not giving others a chance to have their say. But Maharaj had told me that this is Krishna simply testing me. He has instructed me to see Krishna's smile in everything that I do for Him. He also said that Krishna will never leave me. He said to read the Bhagavad Gita daily and to stay close in association with devotees.
What brought me comfort in these instructions from Maharaj is that he said Krishna will never leave me. Krishna may put me into difficulty but like maharaj said Krishna is simply testing me to see how much I really Him.
What i love about Krishnas name is that His name is so powerful that you cannot forget Him. Even if you hear His name only once still you cannot forget unless you have a desire to Krishna will make you forget Him if that is your desire. After all He is the one that causes the living entity to remember or forget. So my desire to is to ALWAYS remember Krishna. And I don't care how hard other people out there try to make me leave Krishna or make me forget Him because it is impossible for them to do that. Krishna promises that He takes special care of His devotees and they never vanquish. This is in the Bhagavad Gita. As long as one always thinks of Krishna, Krishna will never foget His devotees. Srila Prabhupada often repeats this in his lectures.
So that is how Krishna never leaves us. Simply say Hare Krishna or just Krishna, He is automatically there. He is present in His Holy Names. I try to chant more rounds so that I can realize this myself. And I am slowly but surely realizing this through my guru Maharaj's mercy.
