Today was a difficult day for me and for all George fans around the world. Today was the day that George had passed away on. I felt like it was the longest day of my life but I'm glad today is over with.
I woke up this morning not feeling too well. I actually did not want to face this day but I knew I had to. I chanted my rounds and did some service to try to get my mind off of it. After lunch I stayed in my room most of the day. I was suprised that hardly anyone was really online at the georgeharrison.com message board. Some members were there made one or two posts and then left. It seems like they only come around on this day and that's it for the rest of the year. Its kind of sad. I try to post there when I think of something to post worthwhile.
But anyways, at 3:30pm this afternoon I chanted the last of my rounds, then at 4pm I read George's favorite Bhagavad Gita verse Ch. 2 Text 12. I even read the sankskrit part. I wasn't sure if I pronounced any of the words right though. Then after that I read from the Krishna Book to him too. I read about Mother Yasoda binding Lord Krishna since George like that photo I think or liked photos of Lord Krishna and Mother Yasoda together which is why I read that story to him. Then at 4:25 I put on two more garlands around George's picture. His picture actually look very pretty with all the flowers around him. I gave him Radha and Krishna's garland, Lord Nrsimadeva's garland and also Lord Chaitanya's garland to him including Tulasi's flowers that were offered and even one of Srila Prabhupada's offered flowers. here is a picture of what it looks like. Click on the link below to view
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I broke down in tears at 4:30pm and I played My Sweet Lord on my CD player. I quietly said a little prayer for George but I felt like I was just talking to him. I said this to him...
"Thank you for bringing me to Krishna. I wouldn't be at this temple if it wasn't for you.
Please don't come back to this world it is a terrible place. I know that you are in the spiritual world somewhere. I love you always George. You'll always have a special place in my heart. "
After that I had offered my obeisances to him. Since he is a devotee, normally all devotees offer obeisances to each other. Mother Sudevi who is a senior Prabhupada disciple even offered her obeisances to George too which I was suprised to see.
But now i feel a bit better since this day is just about over. I hope George liked what i did for him today. I don't know how many other fans out there have done the same thing like I did but I just felt I had to do it for him since he was so deeply into Krishna Conciousness. he brought me to Krishna and I'm about to be initiated soon as well. God Bless George.
