I had been pretty busy these last few days with cleaning, helping in the kitchen and now Im back to caring for Tulasi full time again. I had to train Rashmin to get used to Tulasi for two weeks. So now I want to relish in serving Tulasi during the last days of my stay here in Toronto. I had one of my young Tulasis on the altar today. I will put another one of them on there tomorrow. I have three big young Tulasis that are perfect to go on the altar. She's so big now. Big, bright and so green. She's so pretty. I wish I could take her with me to LA but the border I know will not allow me to take her.
Anyways this weekend we have three big events going on. We have a Food Fair going on, a wedding, and the Sunday Feast with Prabhupada Marathon. it's going to be super busy. I hope and pray to Krishna that I will be able to handle it smoothly without being put into anxiety.
I've also been trying to keep up with my reading and do a few extra rounds too. I still have difficulty in trying to understand what Prabhupada is saying in his lectures that I listen to. Today we listened to him. He went over the Srimade Bhagavatam Canto 7 Ch 9 Text 8. I think the radio was up too loud and made it echoey in the temple room so I had difficulty in understanding Prabhupada. I can understand him a bit better when I have my headphones on, especially if he is talking slow. Other lectures sometimes Prabhupada explain things a bit too fast and then I have to go back to try and catch what he said.
Also a part of me wants to try book distribution but the other half of me doesn't. My false ego keeps getting in the way all the time. It's just annoying. I should ask Maharaj how I can get rid of my false ego. :( Im just too shy to really do anything. Devotees have told me that being shy is a good quality to have but in my case Im just too shy for my own good. So this is another thing I have to work on is getting rid of my shyness too because it is a part of my false ego. Let's see what Maharaj has to say about it. I have to talk to him anyway before I leave here December 10th. I've got a thousand questions running through my head to ask him. I want to have loads of instructions from him for when I stay in LA so that Im kept busy enough.
