Well today was my last full day in New Vrndavan. I spent most of the day cleaning out my room. I had gotten rid of most of what I had originally although I do have to leave a couple bags behind until I come back for them for the Festival of Inspiration but I only have about three or four small bags that have some clothes in them. I had left them in Mother Sudevi's apartment so as not to have it stolen while Im away. I have yet to stop over Mother Sudevi's apartment to leave her a little gift and a couple more small things.
I kept thinking of Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha the whole time I was here in New Vrndavan. It was because the days were getting close for me to return to Them. I know Radha Vrndavan Chandra were right in front of me though. I spent some quiet time with Radha Vrndavan Chandra quietly saying good bye to Them promising to always remember Them, especially Lord Nrsimahadeva. That is where I feel torn in two. I am so attracted to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha but at the same time so attracted to Lord Nrsimahadeva in New Vrndavan. But I know I can always visit Him and plus I have some nice pictures of Him as well that I am taking with me.
I also managed to get a very nice garland for my guru Maharaj. I got him a Lord Jaganatha garland. :) And I also got another small garland for whoever is picking me up at the bus station Saturday morning. :)
11:30am tomorrow I plan on taking a final darshan of the Deities before I leave at noon. I will probably spend the last 15 minutes in front of Lord Nrsimahadeva. I will miss Him very dearly. This morning though during the program, I could have sworn Gopalnathaji was looking at me. I guess it was more verification, and then Lord Nityananda had a bluish tint to Him as well. They must have given me Their blessing with going to Toronto. I do however look forward to seeing the Deities again for the festival. And I will miss some of the devotees here like Mother Siki, Mother Dhara, Govinda Mohini, Mandakini, Vyapi, and ChandraShankar Prabhu and a few others. They were the few devotees that I could talk to at least in New Vrndavan. But I know the devotees in Toronto wish to have me back as soon as possible including my guru Maharaj whom I am aching to see and talk to soon. I know my spiritual batteries will be recharged when I see Maharaj and the devotees there! Haribol!
