All of a sudden when I went to go do the Deity plate transfer tonight, I suddenly felt very nervous. I was shaking all over. It could be both nerves and excitement of this weekend. I just don't know. It felt like I was running back and forth doing service trying to calm my nerves! How will I sleep tonight? omg. So many of my godbrothers and godsisters are coming including my guru Maharaj.
I'm still trying to prepare myself for Maharaj's arrival. I think that is the major reason why Im feeling so nervous. I have not seen him in two months. Im still shaking like a leaf right now. Maybe I'll get myself a sprite soda or something to calm me down. Im like high strung right now and so jumpy. I just hope to Krishna Im not going to be in tears when I see Maharaj. Because Maharaj has been so very kind to me. I feel so restless and can't seem to sit down! I know the minute I see him I'd be falling at his lotus feet offering him obeisances. Omg Im so nervous I feel like Im going to cry! I hope I can fall asleep tonight. But that is going to be difficult!
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