When one is not feeling well the old saying that everyone says is that "you're feeling under the weather." Well that's pretty much what happened to me the other night. I was fine all day yesterday but then later that night I was feeling very sick to my stomach. I don't know if I caught a stomach virus or a light flu bug, or if it was just something in the prasadam that didn't agree with my stomach. But I was up all night the other night due to an upset stomach and I kept getting hot and cold flashes, and not only that my back was in pain. I was just hurting all over. That's the material body for you. It brings you nothing but pain and suffering. Thank goodness this body is only temporary. When one is sick it reminds you that this body is NOT permanant. It detioriates with age and time.
I was very upset with myself though for not going to Mangal Aarti yesterday morning. I just hope and pray my guru Maharaj will forgive me for not going. I did try to get up for Mangal Aarti but when I did I was feeling really sick and didn't want to run the risk of getting sick during Mangal Aarti or get anyone else sick on top of that. I went to Mangal Aarti this morning though. My stomach was still hurting me but I forced myself to stay through the whole thing becuase I was not about to miss out on Mangal Aarti again. I hate missing Mangal Aarti. My guru Maharaj knows I go to Mangal Aarti everyday without fail. I even try to go when Im not feeling well. But yesterday took it's toll on me. :(
I have not eaten anything for a day an a half due to an upset stomach. I might try to have some fruit at the 4:30pm offering. not sure if I am up to eating a full lunch yet. Im afraid to attempt to eat the prasadam for it may upset my stomach again.
Today though I cheered up a bit. I ran into one of the devotees from Toronto! I forgot his name but he is an Indian body and very nice. He says he saw me before in Toronto and here too. I told him Im trying to get back to Toronto as soon as possible. Not sure when it will happen. I told him I have to wait till Maharaj comes back from South Africa first.
While I am recovering from a little flu bug I've done a lot of reading this morning. I've been reading from The Teachings of Lord Kapila most of the morning to keep my mind occupied and off the stomach pains i've been having. Im also doing a load of clothes to wash also. I even found my purple jacket in the laundry room.Im glad I found that. I'll need it when I go back up to Toronto. I just hope the rest of the day will go by smoothly. I did do some service this morning. I cleaned the pujari room and I'll do the Deity Plate transfer later. I feel too contiminated to do Tulasi Aarti so I'll wait till tomorrow to do that again although I felt sad about not doing Tulasi Aarti because it makes me feel closer to Maharaj even while he's away. I should be back to my oldself tomorrow. :)
