I was just going over a lecture by Srila Prabhupada 1.8.29 in the Srimad Bhagavatam. He was talking about how we should surrender to Krsna and try to satify Him.
If we try to satisfy Krsna then He will satisfy us. He doesn't need our service but he kindly accepts it Prabhupada said. Today I was talking with a couple devotees about this about satisfying guru and Krsna. One devotee says that you must be joyful with the service you are doing otherwise it will not be transcendental loving service to Krsna it would just be mundane work. But if you think that you are doing this for Krsna's satisfaction then you can become more joyful about the service. I was keeping that in mind today while cutting vegetables. "I am doing this for Krsna and his devotees and also for my guru Maharaj." Krsna's devotees here seemed VERY much pleased with me helping them cut up vegetables so I felt that Krsna was pleased too including my guru Maharaj. I had cut up some snow peas, brussell sprouts, tofu, and zuchini which took me three hours to do and I didnt mind it. My back was also hurting a bit but I ignored the pain as much as I could because I was doing this for Krsna.
Prabhupada also said in the lecture that the only way to stop satisfying our material senses is to satisfy Krsna's sense then we will no longer be servant of our senses. This is something I should focus on.
I also spoke with the mataji who was in charge of Tulasi. She's a Prabhupada disciple and she seemed like a very quiet and grave devotee but still nice. I asked her if there was anything I can do to help with Tulasi and she said maybe in the spring time i can help with Tulasi. Right now Tulasi doesn't really require so much attention in the winter time. So I will continue to pray to Krsna in letting me help care for Tulasi when He's ready.
Today I chanted 20 rounds. We're supposed to read and chant more on Ekadashi. I fasted until 12:30pm today. We had Gauranga Potatoes for lunch yummy! On Ekadashi I try to fast at least until 12 noon and if I feel I've mastered that maybe I can try for the whole day to please Krsna. But He knows what I can and can't handle. I want to try to do more for Krsna since He's already done a lot for me. I hope the temple president here will have more on my schedule so that I can satisfy Krsna more. Three hours of service is not enough. My guru Maharaj wants me to do 6 hours and I must follow those instructions. I will speak with him tomorrow if he has anything ready for me to do.
Right now there is a maha kirtan going on. They have that here on Tuesday nights I think. I have some things to work on though. I need to work on Maharaj's BG course and send it to him sometime soon. Im trying to figure out how I can answer the first few questions as I am having a little trouble finding the answers to. So I have some homework to work on now I will post more stuff later on as it comes up. :) At least I am having many realizations here in Los Angeles and I've only been here for a week and a half, but only a few days at the temple.As I've said in my last post Krsna is being so kind to me, even when things aren't looking bright Krsna is still kind and merciful to me. All glories to Lord Sri Krsna and Srila Prabhupada. Why they are being so kind to this undeserving materially contaminated soul is beyond me. Im not qualified for anything. I can only try to satisfy Srila Prabhupada and Lord Krsna the best I can.
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