Just One of Those Mornings

It's just one of those mornings where I woke up super early. I got up at 2:30am and just chanted my rounds and was pretty much finished by 4:15am before Mangal Aarti.  I don't know why I woke up so early. Something was probaby bothering me but only Krishna knows why I woke up so early.

Yesterday did turn out nice despite me struggling with separation from my guru Maharaj. Devotees in the kitchen were kidding around with me. I was talking to a nice mataji who is brand new to the movement. Her name is Sue. She told me she just joined the movement this September. She was asking me questions about how I came to the movement and also she was wanting to know about my guru Maharaj. I will show her a picture of him later because she wanted to know what he looks like.

Usually during the morning programs I just feel really quiet I don't normally talk much until later in the morning. Im still trying to adjust to the new surroundings. I emailed my guru Maharaj last night and told him I am struggling with adjusting a bit. Getting to know new faces and places is a bit overwhelming for me. I hope Krishna will help me get past this obstacle.  One of the matajis invited me to dance with the ladies this morning but I wasn't feeling up to it and I didn't want to hurt my back. I cannot do any of the wild dancing they do here. Im not much of a dancer and especially now being in a new place I don't feel ready to do stuff like that. 

I know Im still identifying with the body. Im guilty of that. It may take me years to realize it. So I have my faults I can make a whole list of them. But I hope in time Krishna will make me realize that I am not this body but a spirit soul. But it's hard when you are feeling pain in the body. This is a sign for me to do this : more chanting.