More realizations are sinking in. Krishna is still being merciful to me. Today He had let me "hear" my guru Maharaj's instructions to me through my heart because He knows I'm struggling still a little bit with separation.
My day started off early as I had said in my most recent post today. During the morning program, the temple president made an announcement that we would be remembering a great devotee named Yamuna Devi Dasi, who was one of Srila Prabhupada's first disciples, and my guru Maharaj's godsister. All day long I could just "hear" Maharaj say to me "You should come to the program tonight." I know he'd want me to come to show support. I never met Yamuna Devi Dasi but after the program tonight I thought that she was such a great devotee and seemed like a very nice mataji according to others who have spoken about her tonight. So I had gone to this program not only because the temple president asked us to come but even before he had asked us to come I "heard" my guru Maharaj instructiong me to come to the program to remember his godsister Yamuna Devi Dasi. So I also went for him to honor his instructions and strictly follow it.
Also today I did a little bit of cleaning in the pujari room. Today I had washed the walls and borders in the hallways, and cleaned off these old wooden shelves that had A LOT of dust on them. I felt Maharaj was pleased with that service and I hope Krishna Himself was too. Also when I was cleaning those walls in the pujari room, I noticed that they keep two tulasi plants in there for the morning program. So I took my time because I wanted to be near Tulasi. I miss my baby Tulasis back in Toronto. I wish I didn't have to leave her there but since I don't have Canadian citizenshipe I had to come back ot the States. I am very much attached to Tulasi Devi as she has been so merciful to me. There is another Tulasi bead bag in the gift shop I saw that I want to get. I have one with her on my bead bag but this one they have is slightly different. I'll just get a different color with her on it. They have three of those left. I will get it after Christmas.
But now there is only one thing bothering me. My services today seemed too short. I only did two and a half hours of service today and Maharaj wants me to do six hours of service. I hope they will add a little more to my schedule as I want to follow my guru Maharaj's instructions. Hopefully I will be able to "hear" Maharaj's instuctions to me again like that. It had brought me some comfort.
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