Youth Bhajan

Tonight there was a youth bhajan. I hadn't gone to it since I came back from California. Tonight was my first time attending the bhajan. It was really more of a mixed group at the bhajans but there were some much younger devotees than me leading kirtans most of them looked a few years older than me though.
But it was nice to sit in and listen to the different melodies of the Holy Name. The melodies were quite mellow as it was happening in the evening around 7:30 till 9pm. They got pretty ecstatic towards the end. It felt nice to be with younger people and a few who seemed liked they were around my age kind of anyways.
I was also sitting there thinking "Maharaj would have told me to attend this." So in a way it was like mana seva for Maharaj following his instructions. So next Tuesday I will attend the bhajan. The youth bhajan is a new thing they started for Tuesday nights. They never had this before even before winter started. So there had been changes made while I was away. It's just happening very very slowly.
The kirtan lasted for an hour and a half. I tried to sit on the rugs against a pillar to support my back as I cannot sit on the floor for too long. Amazingly I wasn't in that much pain but towards the end I was starting to feel it. But I had a nice time chanting Krishna's Names. It was relaxing in a way to relieve the tension I've been feeling lately at the temple. Mandakini was with me too at the bhajan and Bhaktin Shannon was too for about a half hour. I am not sure if I'll ever lead a kirtan as I am not so good with melodies nor is my singing voice that great. I can only lead Lord Nrsimahadeva prayers pretty well by myself but as far as everything else not really. I have trouble with Tulasi melody, thought I sing to Her every night as I do evening Aarti for Her. I was way off key though tonight for some reason. I have good nights and not so good nights I guess.
But maybe now after this youth bhajan I'll be a little more inspired. And also we'll see how Mangal Aarti goes tomorrow too hopefully that will get a bit more ecstatic too.