Another short day again. I woke up at 2:30am this time. This morning i had to make small Gaura Nitai flower garlands and small Lord Jagannatha garlands. Those took me an hour to do. Then I spent an hour and a half in the kitchen today. It was easy cut up. I only cut up 2 buckets of zukini, one bucket of tomatoes and one bucket of cauliflower. I was going to cut two buckets of broccoli today but we didn't have any so I may have to do them tomorrow.
I was finished the same time as yesterday 11am. When I got back to my room I took a quick shower and then ate some of the potato salad since we don't have lunch on Sundays. I got dressed and hurried over to the temple for the 12 noon Aarti. I chanted 20 rounds today. I seem to be pretty much stuck on chanting 20 rounds now. I emailed my guru Maharaj about it so I am curious as to what he will say about it. I had also sent him two emails this morning but they are answers from his Bhagavad Gita course that I am currently taking. I am now on Chapter 5. I plan on trying to work on some of it later.
Anyways the 12 noon Aarti today was a bit crowded because it's Sunday. But it was still peaceful. I sat in the front so that I can see Sri Sri Rukmini Dwarkadish. As I was chanting I could almost feel Krishna looking down at me. Sometimes I get those feels where you feel it's just you and Krishna alone but there were other people there so I knew Lord Krishna was looking at everyone. But looking into Lord Krishna's Lotus Eyes left me stunned. The beauty of His Lotus Petal Eyes, you can tell there is much love in His Eyes. He wants all of us to return to Him. He takes special care of His devotees who serve Him with pure love and devotion. I believe that is what I am feeling from Lord Krishna whenever I take darshan of Him in the temple room. I can feel His love through His Lotus Petal Eyes, and beautiful smile.
This afternoon I watched mayapur.tv. I did not see my guru Maharaj on there today. :( I was a little disappointed. Maybe I'll see him tomorrow on the webcam. He led an awesome Tulasi puja kirtan yestrday! I felt so happy to hear his voice again. Also after the 12 noon aarti I felt so tired that I fell asleep. My back was in pain all day today. It just felt sore for some strange reason. Mainly in my lower back. It felt like something was pressing down really hard on my lower back causing a sore feeling. I have to get a state id and proof of address to go to the doctor for my back. :( Im so tired of being in pain with my back nearly everyday. I can't even go on long walks with my guru Maharaj and others due to my back hurting me after so long. Sitting on the floor is also hard on my back. I did that a lot today but I tried sitting up against the wall to help support my back that at least helps some.
As for now I am currently doing my laundry. I just cleaned my room, and now I am relaxing my back. I may go to bed early today not sure. Depends on how I feel.
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