Prayer to Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha

My dear Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha,

I feel so guilty for having to leave You and Your beautiful temple. But as You know, I had no choice. I wish this world didn't go by nationality, or what religion they are in or even about this bodily concept of life for we are not these bodies anyway. But since I am not Canadian, I had to return to the United States. I was not happy about that nor did I want to return to the States. I wanted to stay in Toronto with You,my beloved Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha for You had stolen my heart and I have truly fallen in love with You.

Now that I am 3,000 miles away I believe that even now while I type this that You can read what I am posting here on my blog because You are the Supreme Lord, the One who can see everything. I still feel separation from You.  I have photos of You on my wall and on my door in the ashram here in New Dwaraka to help me to always remember You. Sometimes I feel like crying because I miss You so much Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha.

I also miss serving Your pure devotee in Your temple Tulasi Devi. My heart aches to be with her again as well. But as you say in the Bhagavad Gita one must be tolerant of happiness and distress. That is hard one for me to learn.

My Dearest Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha is there any way that I can move permanantly in Your temple so that I will alway serve You there in Toronto? There must be a way! Because if You let me return to Toronto this summer I will never want to leave You ever again.  I cannot bear to be this far away from You. It is a deep ache in my heart wanting to be with You again

Only You are able to fullfill all Your devotees desires that they may have. You surely know what mine are for You know my heart. But I believe You are teaching me patience right now with my transcendental desires that I have. For my transcendental desire are these: Wanting to move to Toronto permanantly to serve You, and Your two exalted devotees Tulasi Devi and my guru Maharaj. But it is up to You if You wish to fullfill these desires I am not in control. You can do with me as You like. If You allow me to return to You Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha, I have new services in mind that I can do for You. Doing book distribution on my own is one of them, extra cleaning around the temple, inside and outside, attending Aartis as much as possible. Extra service in the kitchen if needed.

My Dearest Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha I am begging You with all my heart, with love and devotion to please PLEASE let me return to You in Toronto permanantly so that I may never  have to leave You again. But if You wish me to stay here in New Dwaraka then I will do it. It will be hard but I must accept what ever You want me to do. My guru Maharaj told me just recently to let You arrange our lives. So I will follow his instruction and wait and see what Your arrangement for me will be.

What ever You decide for me Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha, I will still always love You with all my heart no matter where You may send me. Just let me always remember You, let me remember and keep my mind fixed on Your Lotus Feet and let me serve You in my heart.

Your humble loyal eternal servant,

Hari Lila Devi Dasi