It's Not Me

Today another realization set in. I was pretty busy for most of the day up until 12 noon. I was in the pujari room for an hour helping put flowers in plastic bags to be used for the garlands the next day and then I was allowed to make the small flower garlands for the mini Lord Jaganatha Deities. Their garlands are a bit hard to make because They are much smaller. The flower mums were difficult to work with because they break easily or they fall off the garland without breaking. But I still managed to make them. It pleases Maharaj when I make the flower garlands for the Deities.

Then I spent two and a half hours in the kitchen today from 9:30am til 11:45am. We had to cut 9 buckets of cauliflower for the Sunday Feast tomorrow. I did not do it all myself of course. Mukta Prabhu, and another Prabhu came in to help with cutting up vegetables. That took me an hour an a half to do. I made four buckets of cauliflower. After that I had to cut two buckets of red cabbage. The red cabbage was tough to cut but I managed to do that as well. Krishna gave me the strength to cut the red cabbage.

I had a two hour break then after I finished in the kitchen while I waited for lunch. I just relaxed in my room browsing youtube for some videos about learning how to dance but I really couldn't find any good ones yet. For lunch we had rice, a nice subji with zuchini, tofu, and im not sure what else was in it but otherwise it was very good and not spicey thank heavens. At least I know I can eat the prasadam here with no problem. They have that no chili or cayenne pepper rule here too. :)

Lastly, at 2:30pm in the afternoon, I went to the pujari room and did some cleaning for an hour. I cleaned the Deitie's laundry room. It's quite small but easy to clean. I cleaned the shelves that were there and dusted off this black refridgerator, and also I cleaned behind it. Behind that refridgerater was absolutely filthy! There was dust and trash on the floor so I got that out of there and wiped off the walls to get rid of the dust and I dusted off the back of the refridgerator too. It was very light for me to move with no problem. I also wiped off the washer and drier, and then swept out the floor really good. I noticed a big difference after it was cleaned. It looked much better. I then decided to dust off the pictures on the wall. While I did that, one of the matajis who was a pujari saw me cleaning off the pictures. She said thank you to me for doing that and said the pictures looked so much better without the dirt on them. I humbly said thank you to her and that it is not really me doing this service, it's my guru Maharaj. I give all the credit to my guru Maharaj because he was the one that showed me how to keep things clean for Krishna. I also say this because when I took the Deity Worship Seminar in Toronto I had learned that when pujaris do Aartis on the altar, it's not really them doing it, it's their spiritual master doing the Aartis. We are no where nearly qualifed or elevated to be standing there on the altar doing those Aartis like our gurus are. Even Krishna said that we have to go through His devotees first in order to reach Him.  So I had actually felt happy about the service I was doing because I knew it was really my guru Maharaj doing the service. I"m certainly in no position or qualified to be doing service for Krishna because Im materially contaminated and still thinking that Im this body.

As I've said in one of my previous posts, my guru Maharaj sets the perfect example in following Srila Prabhupada his guru Maharaj. So I am only trying to follow that too. My guru Maharaj loves to help others and also do things around the temple as well. I hope one day I can be like him always wanting to constantly do something for Krishna and help other people too. I thank Krishna for sending me a guru who sets that example for me to follow.