Lord Krishna's Blackish Form

Okay somebody tell me why Im hooked onto Krishna's blackish form? Ever since I came back to Toronto I've just felt like I've been crazy for Krishna in His blackish Deity form. Maybe it's Krishna's way of revealing Himself to me somehow and also just to get me even more attracted to Him. That is what He wants after all is for us to become attracted to Him. Whatever Krishna is doing to me He's doing a good job of it as His form of Sri Sri Radha Ksiracora Gopinatha. As for Maya she can go chase herself up a tree! Leave me alone maya I want to meditate on Krishna in His beautiful blackish form!

Yesterday I was talking on the phone with my close friend and senior disciple of Srila Prabhupada, Mother Sudevi about Krishna's blackish form. We both agree that we like Lord Krishna when He is in His blackish form as a Deity. I believe it is because we can see Lord Krishna's beautiful features so  much more easier in His blackish form than white. I think Lord Krishna really stands out more in His blackish form. I mean what is there NOT to love about Krishna? Yes Krishna is real. He is God Himself. Krishna means "All attractive" and God is all attractive.

This morning during Mangal Aarti I always see a sweet smile on Krishna's Lotus Face. I usually stand very close to the altar and sometimes I forget about myself, just lost in thought about how pretty Krishna is when He is standing right there present before all of us. It makes one feel very fortunate to be in His presence. The one Sunday when the pujaris dressed Lord Krishna, I nearly melted to the floor in a puddle because He looked so beautiful. He was wearing a blue and white outfit which really set off His blackish color! Krishna actaully, made me totally forget about everything that I used to like in the past favorite actors and musicians that day. I was just beside myself just looking at Krishna because after all He is the most beautiful of all.

Some mornings when I get up I feel so tired not wanting to get up, but I just have to force msyelf to so that I can get up and see Lord Krishna in His blackish form. Im tryng to get over sleepiness that I feel a  lot in the morning and I do need some type of energy for it so why not let it be Krishna's blackish form to get me excited in the morning? I wish I could paint really well because if I could I'd paint a beautiful picture of Lord Krishna in His blackish from. I mean i can draw and all that but I'm no where near a professional. Maybe one day Lord Krishna will allow me to paint pictures of Him professionally. That will help me to always rememeber Him too for me.

But whatever He has planned for me I just hope He'll allow me to always be engaged in His service in this life and continual future lives I may take.