It does feel good to be back in New Vrndavan after not being there for three months. I did see some slight change in it. I saw some new devotees I never saw before and I met the new temple president Jaya Krishna. He's really nice. And familiar faces there also were happy to see me. They all asked me what my initiated name was and some asked me who my guru Maharaj was.
Mandakini was mostly with me most of the time. We always goof around when we see each other. She too is aspiring for Bhaktimarga Swami. Im trying to encourage her to practice her sadana so that she can please Maharaj and become his disciple. That way we could be Godsisters. She wants to spend a lot of time with me before I head back to Toronto this Friday. I cannot wait to go back to Toronto to see the devotees there and especially Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha and Maharaj. I hope I can talk with Maharaj for a bit on how things went in California and New Vrndavan for my short stay.
But I did have a problem when I came back to New Vrndavan. When I got to my room I found that it was unlocked. Someone had gone into my room and totally destroyed it. My clothes were everywhere my TV was thrown on my bed, and one of my desk drawers were pulled out and left on the floor. And even worse yet, my murti of Lord Nrsimahadeva was STOLEN. I have no clue who did it, but I was VERY VERY upset. But Mandakini heard from her mother that her mother may have seen Lord Nrsimahadeva in Krishna's Attic. I hope that is the case because if He's there I am taking Him back. I have the box and I think I have the paper from when Mother Sudevi bought Him as proof that He belongs to me. If I do get my Lord Nrsimahadeva back I am NEVER letting Him out of my sight again!
But other than that things are going well so far here in New Vrndavan. I noticed that the morning kirtans are more estatic and the Aartis are very nice. I plan on going to the 8:30pm Aarti. I try to make it to all the Aartis as I can. Maharaj once said that going to Aartis and seeing the Deity destroys one's material desires and also destroys wanting to satisfy sense gratification. I've noticed that change in me lately that since going to Aartis, I don't have many material desires all I have now basically is transcendental desires like wanting to directly serve my Guru Maharaj and devotees in Toronto and not wanting to ever leave that temple in Toronto ever again. I got so attached to it that I nearly cried a few times being away from it. I love the temple in Toronto. It's like a safe haven for me. Where maya cannot attack. Maya can still attack but not as badly in the temple because Krishna is personally present. All those transcendental desires I had such as wanting to hear Maharaj give class in mayapur, helping Maharaj after his surgery, and going to temples in California were all fullfilled by Krishna Himself. So that is proof right there that Krishna does exist. He is God, the Supreme.
I got an email today also from Maharaj. He simply told me to keep my sadana strong and to keep happy. He also asked me when I was coming back. I am very happy he wishes me to return to Toronto. He also thanked me for the messages as well. I think he was pleased that I kept in touch with him. That's all I really care to do now is to please my guru Maharaj. Because if he is pleased, that means Srila Prabhupada is pleased, and then Krishna (God Himself) is also pleased so I am very very careful about that.
So we will see how the next three days go here in New Vrndavan. I will be sure to spend as much time with the Deities here as possible. Which is why I've been going to the Aartis lately.
Three days to go till Toronto!!!!!!
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