This morning I woke up to chant my rounds and watch mangal aarti on the live webcam. How I miss going to mangal aarti physically in the temple. It really does help to boost your spiritually energy by attending mangal aarti at 4:30am. Most people believe that getting up early is poison or hurting the body but it's not. If one goes to bed early and sleeps 6 hours that is more than enough. Meditating on Krishna( who is God) in the morning is like one's morning coffee. To help one get the day started. So I can see why caffeine is not needed lol. I woke up at 3am this morning, before anyone else at my aunt's house.
The only thing I miss is my service at the temple. It is NOT slave work. Working in a fast food restaurant like I used to WAS slave work and underpay,calling me all hours of the night to come in to work and taking advantage of me, and wasnt making enough to support myself. Some people want me to go back to the life I used to live but do they really want me to go back to living beyond my means? I didn't make enough money to support myself? All I know is restaurant work and I don't want to go back to work out there and having to worry about bills. My mother will not take me back in nor will my other family members.I am on my own. I am 27 years old and can make my own decisions I took shelter of Krishna(God) He is taking care of me. I refuse to go back to my old life. Krishna got me out of living locked up in a house for 15 years not being able to see friends or family and living in a house that was surrounded by boxes and sleeping on an old mattress with boxes around my head that could have fallen on me, and that house was filthy at that. And people want me to go home to that life again? No way. I have more freedom now living in a temple to where I am free to travel and see the world where as if I went back home I cannot due to financial reasons. I can live a normal life even in the temple. Other people who cannot see this I am sorry for them. I am living a wonderful life as a Hare Krishna devotee.
Attending mangal aarti at 4:30am keeps me thinking postive and thankful for what Krishna has done for me and now I have to repay Him back by doing these services with love and devotion and I love serving Krishna. I can work at my own pace for Him.
Ohhhh, Hari Lila...I am so sad as I read parts of this and then happy that you are finding your way. Krishna is so much watching and helping you. Hare Krishna, Vaidehi Devi Dasi
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