Still Adjusting to Temple Life

I just feel unusually quiet today. Probably because I've been doing a lot of thinking.

I kept myself pretty busy with Tulasi Devi this morning. I had to move Her around to get the best light in Her room upstairs and I'm hoping that will help her. I gave Her water and swept and mopped the floor. Tomorrow I have to clean out the mini closets She has in Her room because they are a mess. I save a little bit for each day. I also finished chanting my rounds in Tulasi's room too and even during Japa this morning I was in Her room too. Maybe I need to spend more time with Tulasi since I don't really associate much with the other devotees here except Sudevi.

Yesterday I had a problem eating Prasadam as it was way too spicey for me to eat it. I had a very very light lunch as a result. Today is pasta day though and that I can load up on at least. This morning I had pancakes and fruit from the Maha prasadam. Thank you Krishna for that mercy this morning.

I have also been thinking a lot about my spiritual master Bhaktimarga Swami. I've been emailing him a lot these days even more so now that my initiation day is coming VERY close. Maharaj is so kind. I loved everything he's said in the emails he's written to me. I saved those emails in a seperate folder so as to save them in what ever advice he gave me. That way I can look back and refer to it if I got stuck on the same thing again. Dayal has even said that Maharaj does ask about me when he calls him. I was very very touched by that. I know I can always rely on Maharaj and Dayal when ever I am in need of something. I cannot wait to see Maharaj soon. Just by reading his emails has gotten me even more attached to him.

Im still trying to learn a few more prayers in the temple too. Learning a new language is difficult for me. I still haven't mastered Tulasi's prayer or the Worship of Sri Guru yet. I'm so slow at learning new things. And there are a lot of rules and regulations too at the temple that I"m still trying to get used to. Some are easy to remember others aren't.

But I am happy here in the temple. Most days are great and a few aren't It all depends on what I'm feeling. I still get a little homesick being away from the Cleveland devotees. :( Although I cannot go back to where I used to live because it was too hard to survive on my own.