I had received an email reply from my guru Maharaj today. I had told him I was afraid of maya trying to find her way in my spiritual life. She still does but she is having difficulty now I am sure becasue I am being stubborn with her or at least trying to be so that i stay focused more on Krishna.
But it's when Im out on book distribution is where my fear of maya comes in. Especially if I run into someone who is completely attached to speaking only of Jesus and not giving others a chance to have their say. But Maharaj had told me that this is Krishna simply testing me. He has instructed me to see Krishna's smile in everything that I do for Him. He also said that Krishna will never leave me. He said to read the Bhagavad Gita daily and to stay close in association with devotees.
What brought me comfort in these instructions from Maharaj is that he said Krishna will never leave me. Krishna may put me into difficulty but like maharaj said Krishna is simply testing me to see how much I really Him.
What i love about Krishnas name is that His name is so powerful that you cannot forget Him. Even if you hear His name only once still you cannot forget unless you have a desire to Krishna will make you forget Him if that is your desire. After all He is the one that causes the living entity to remember or forget. So my desire to is to ALWAYS remember Krishna. And I don't care how hard other people out there try to make me leave Krishna or make me forget Him because it is impossible for them to do that. Krishna promises that He takes special care of His devotees and they never vanquish. This is in the Bhagavad Gita. As long as one always thinks of Krishna, Krishna will never foget His devotees. Srila Prabhupada often repeats this in his lectures.
So that is how Krishna never leaves us. Simply say Hare Krishna or just Krishna, He is automatically there. He is present in His Holy Names. I try to chant more rounds so that I can realize this myself. And I am slowly but surely realizing this through my guru Maharaj's mercy.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
George Harrison's Upcoming Appearance Day
I got an email today saying that there will be a special celebration in Hollywood at George's star in front of the Capitol Records building this Saturday from 12 to 2pm. So I have made a decision. I am going to go to this event. I feel I should and I think my guru Maharaj would want me to go. Maharaj had told me more than once that George is like my guru since George had brought me to Krishna.
Late this afternoon around 5pm I got on my bike and rode to the store and got a picture frame and a candle for George's star. I have an old worn out picture that I can leave on George's star. I will bring some flowers too to decorate his star with and maybe leave a mini flower garland around his picture. I hope to get to his star early before 12 noon so that I can spend some quiet time there chanting some rounds.
The main reason why I want to go to this event is to distribute some Chant and Be Happy books. I gotta get more of those some how. I hope tomorrow I can get into the book room and pick some more up. I only have 26 and I feel I need some more than that. when I was at Paul's star ceremony, I had 13 of those books and they were gone in less than an hour so I feel I need some more just in case. I feel there maybe quite a few people at George's birthday ceremony. Hopefully I can distribute a lot more than last time and email the results to Maharaj. He told me to keep up with book distirbution so I will do my best to please him.
This morning I had found myself listening to George's music for most of the morning. Probably because of George's Appearance day so I decided to listen to some of his songs and Im still hooked onto listening to them. Two of my guru Maharaj's favorite songs by George is My Sweet Lord and Here Comes the Sun. :) I couldn't have asked for more. Im so happy that Krishna allowed me to take shelter of a guru who is also very fond of George.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Monday, February 20, 2012
Tea Time With Friends!
Today was even more enjoyable. I was running a bit late today though for Raj Bhoga Aarti at 12 noon. I didn't have my japa beads with me and I felt strange without them. Some people say they feel "naked" without their wedding rings. Well I feel that way about not having my japa beads with me because for one my guru Maharaj chanted on my beads and two I feel better having my beads with me to chant with.
I tuned into mayapur.tv later in the afternoon. This time I did see Maharaj. My face lit up seeing him again. I just love watching him dance. He does what you call "swami dance steps." He has his own dance moves and its very unique. I haven't seen any other swami dance like he has. Then during the announcements they said my guru Maharaj will lead Tulasi kirtan tomorrow morning! Im definately going to tune in tomorrow for that one! I need to hear his voice again! Im so excited. I love my guru Maharaj's kirtans.
Then I got a knock on my door at 4pm. It was my friend Bhaktin Kindle. She wanted to see my friend Bhaktin Su. So the three of us ended up talking for two hours straight about a variety of subjects. Chaturika handed us some bead bags from mother Padyavali who is a Prabhupada disciple. I noticed one of the bead bags had Tulasi on it and of course that was the one I chose to have. So now I have two Tulasi bead bags. the new one I have of Tulasi is blue and my other one is a maroon colored one. Maybe I should try to find other bead bags with Tulasi on it with different colors like yellow or purple or orange etc. :)
Anyways the three of us sat in the kitchen in the ladies ashram. Bhaktin Su made us some caffeine free hot rose tea. It was pretty good. We discussed what our childhoods were like, we discussed about the different kinds of religions out in the world, we talked a bit about Tulasi Devi, we talked about the gurus in our movement, and also about animals, the different kind of life style we like to live either in the city or country. So it was like getting to know each other and there seems to be a bond there. We all agreed to spend more time together. I feel we will be close friends. I never had friends in high school and now Krishna is being kind with me and allowing me to have friends with His devotees especially since I am new here in New Dwaraka. He knew I had a fear of being in a new place and He has very kindly made that fear vanish. The only problem I am having now is dealing with severe separation from my guru Maharaj, but even that is getting a little better.
We decide that we might make special time to associate over caffeine free tea. We are allowed tea but it must be caffeine free. I also told them that i can teach them how to take care of Tulasi and that I will give them a few seeds that I have brought in with me.Friday Bhaktin Su and i will do a little shopping to prepare for Tulasi's appearance. I also plan on teaching them how to do Tulasi Aarti as well so that will be properly trained on how to truly care for Tulasi Devi who is very dear to Lord Krishna.
I tuned into mayapur.tv later in the afternoon. This time I did see Maharaj. My face lit up seeing him again. I just love watching him dance. He does what you call "swami dance steps." He has his own dance moves and its very unique. I haven't seen any other swami dance like he has. Then during the announcements they said my guru Maharaj will lead Tulasi kirtan tomorrow morning! Im definately going to tune in tomorrow for that one! I need to hear his voice again! Im so excited. I love my guru Maharaj's kirtans.
Then I got a knock on my door at 4pm. It was my friend Bhaktin Kindle. She wanted to see my friend Bhaktin Su. So the three of us ended up talking for two hours straight about a variety of subjects. Chaturika handed us some bead bags from mother Padyavali who is a Prabhupada disciple. I noticed one of the bead bags had Tulasi on it and of course that was the one I chose to have. So now I have two Tulasi bead bags. the new one I have of Tulasi is blue and my other one is a maroon colored one. Maybe I should try to find other bead bags with Tulasi on it with different colors like yellow or purple or orange etc. :)
Anyways the three of us sat in the kitchen in the ladies ashram. Bhaktin Su made us some caffeine free hot rose tea. It was pretty good. We discussed what our childhoods were like, we discussed about the different kinds of religions out in the world, we talked a bit about Tulasi Devi, we talked about the gurus in our movement, and also about animals, the different kind of life style we like to live either in the city or country. So it was like getting to know each other and there seems to be a bond there. We all agreed to spend more time together. I feel we will be close friends. I never had friends in high school and now Krishna is being kind with me and allowing me to have friends with His devotees especially since I am new here in New Dwaraka. He knew I had a fear of being in a new place and He has very kindly made that fear vanish. The only problem I am having now is dealing with severe separation from my guru Maharaj, but even that is getting a little better.
We decide that we might make special time to associate over caffeine free tea. We are allowed tea but it must be caffeine free. I also told them that i can teach them how to take care of Tulasi and that I will give them a few seeds that I have brought in with me.Friday Bhaktin Su and i will do a little shopping to prepare for Tulasi's appearance. I also plan on teaching them how to do Tulasi Aarti as well so that will be properly trained on how to truly care for Tulasi Devi who is very dear to Lord Krishna.
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