Today's Darshan of Sri Sri Rumini Dwarakadish 1-11-2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
An Experience With Sri Sri Rukmini Dwarakadish
Tonight's Aarti at 6:30pm left me stunned again. I stood by Sri Sri Rukmini Dwarakadish the whole entire time and did not move not even an inch. i felt like I was paralayzed or frozen like ice. Krishna really had me glued to that spot by the altar this evening.
This had happened in Toronto as well when I took darshan of the Deities. Krishna's Lotus Petal Eyes left me stunned. So now Sri Sri Rukmini Dwakaradish are doing the same thing to me. I have no idea why. I don't deserve this kind of mercy from Them.
Anyways near the end of the Aarti it felt as if Lord Krishna Himself were looking directly at me....I felt my heart racing and my throat felt a bit choked up. This has not happened to me before unexpectedly like this. At that moment I knew for certain that Krishna is really standing there personally present just as He had in Toronto as well. But this time I felt Him even stronger. People out in the material world would mistake our Deities for being idols but They are NOT idols. They are REAL and They are standing there present before us. But due to the material energy like Srila Prabhupada said, we cannot physically see Them face to face yet because we need spiritual eyes to see Them not material eyes.
I really want to surrender to Krishna a lot more but the question is how when I still have some material desires in me? Im still materially contaminated, and Im still in the mode of passion sometimes. Maybe I need to email Maharaj about this and ask him what this feeling I felt with Krishna is. But I won't forget it. I like being up close to the altar to get a good look at the Deities and sometimes I feel like Im the only one there most of the time alone with the Deities. At times when i am standing there before Them I feel like I don't even exist or feel like Im even standing there.
It's nice to see the Deities especially Krishna Himself who is so beautifully dressed. This is why I love coming to the temple at least there is something beautiful to look at. You don't see this in regular churches. I mean sure regular churches are nice but they don't seem as beautiful as Krishna's Temple.
This week I'll be going out on sankirtan three times. So I will be unable to attend the evening darshan. but tomorrow night I will be able to see Them and tonight too at the last darshan.
This had happened in Toronto as well when I took darshan of the Deities. Krishna's Lotus Petal Eyes left me stunned. So now Sri Sri Rukmini Dwakaradish are doing the same thing to me. I have no idea why. I don't deserve this kind of mercy from Them.
Anyways near the end of the Aarti it felt as if Lord Krishna Himself were looking directly at me....I felt my heart racing and my throat felt a bit choked up. This has not happened to me before unexpectedly like this. At that moment I knew for certain that Krishna is really standing there personally present just as He had in Toronto as well. But this time I felt Him even stronger. People out in the material world would mistake our Deities for being idols but They are NOT idols. They are REAL and They are standing there present before us. But due to the material energy like Srila Prabhupada said, we cannot physically see Them face to face yet because we need spiritual eyes to see Them not material eyes.
I really want to surrender to Krishna a lot more but the question is how when I still have some material desires in me? Im still materially contaminated, and Im still in the mode of passion sometimes. Maybe I need to email Maharaj about this and ask him what this feeling I felt with Krishna is. But I won't forget it. I like being up close to the altar to get a good look at the Deities and sometimes I feel like Im the only one there most of the time alone with the Deities. At times when i am standing there before Them I feel like I don't even exist or feel like Im even standing there.
It's nice to see the Deities especially Krishna Himself who is so beautifully dressed. This is why I love coming to the temple at least there is something beautiful to look at. You don't see this in regular churches. I mean sure regular churches are nice but they don't seem as beautiful as Krishna's Temple.
This week I'll be going out on sankirtan three times. So I will be unable to attend the evening darshan. but tomorrow night I will be able to see Them and tonight too at the last darshan.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Quiet Easy Monday
Today was very quiet and peaceful. I did my normal service keeping my mind fixed on Krishna as much as possible. Lately I have been doing that while I do my service. I was just reading today from a Nectar of Devotion lecture on a link that I found of Srila Prabhupada that he says that if we want to always be attached to Krishna's Lotus Feet then we must stay busy in His transcendental loving service.So i did the best I could today with that. I spent an hour and a half in the pujari room today and another hour and a half in the kitchen today. So to me it felt like the day was too short with service. However if I was still in Toronto's temple on a Monday, I'd be busy up to the neck with service because I'd be in the kitchen, taking care of Tulasi, and then extra cleaning after the Sunday Program. So here it's slower with service. At least in the spring I can hel take care of Tulasi.
I spoke to Mukta Prabhu today about helping me sign up for the local doctor at a family clinic near by. So I got the doctor's number and also the letter for them to not to charge me any fees for the visit. i received an email from my guru Maharaj about that and he said he may know the clinic that I would be going to because he had gotten poison ivy in 2004 in LA and he had to go to this same clinic and he knows the doctor there. It's always so nice to get an email from my guru Maharaj. It always makes me smile and feel more inspired about serving Krishna.
I have received a call from my Aunt Tracey today. She said she found a bike for me. She has to call my Uncle Chris to see if he can drive the bike over. This bike will be very helpful as then I can go a farther distance around town if I need to. Krishna makes such nice arrangements. With the bike I can go out more and get some air after my services. Bike riding may be easier on my back than walking. I should save up to buy a bike in Toronto as well. The one I am getting here will have to stay here when I go back to Toronto this summer.
I spent then the rest of the afternoon studying Srila Prabhupada's books. I worked on my guru Maharaj's Bhagavad Gita course for a little while. Then I listened to one of Srila Prabhupada's lectures on the Nectar of Devotion and took nearly three pages worth of notes. Then I studied a bit of Nectar of Devotion on my own and took notes from the book itself. Later this evening I will settle in and try to read the Krishna book some more and maybe a bit of the Srimad Bhagavatam Canto 1.
I spoke to Mukta Prabhu today about helping me sign up for the local doctor at a family clinic near by. So I got the doctor's number and also the letter for them to not to charge me any fees for the visit. i received an email from my guru Maharaj about that and he said he may know the clinic that I would be going to because he had gotten poison ivy in 2004 in LA and he had to go to this same clinic and he knows the doctor there. It's always so nice to get an email from my guru Maharaj. It always makes me smile and feel more inspired about serving Krishna.
I have received a call from my Aunt Tracey today. She said she found a bike for me. She has to call my Uncle Chris to see if he can drive the bike over. This bike will be very helpful as then I can go a farther distance around town if I need to. Krishna makes such nice arrangements. With the bike I can go out more and get some air after my services. Bike riding may be easier on my back than walking. I should save up to buy a bike in Toronto as well. The one I am getting here will have to stay here when I go back to Toronto this summer.
I spent then the rest of the afternoon studying Srila Prabhupada's books. I worked on my guru Maharaj's Bhagavad Gita course for a little while. Then I listened to one of Srila Prabhupada's lectures on the Nectar of Devotion and took nearly three pages worth of notes. Then I studied a bit of Nectar of Devotion on my own and took notes from the book itself. Later this evening I will settle in and try to read the Krishna book some more and maybe a bit of the Srimad Bhagavatam Canto 1.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Hollywood Sankirtan Party 1/7/2012
Last night was totally awesome. So far it was the best sankirtan party I have been to here in Los Angeles. We were in Hollywood again last night. It was not as busy as it was for New Years but it was still quite full of people walking the streets.
We started our kirtan around 6:45pm. It ended at 8pm. This time I noticed a lot of other people liked our chanting and dancing. Some of the people joined in with dancing with us. A few of the Prabhus handed out books. I decided to just chant the Holy Names this time. I tried a little dancing but some of the matajis then did a little bit of fast dancing which I cannot do due to my back so I have to be careful until I get it checked out then maybe after that I can dance faster.
There was almost one incident however with this older guy. We were all trying to be transcendental and chanting the Holy Names to this guy who seemed totally intoxicated. He kept moving up too close to us women and getting in our faces. So a couple of the Prabhus stood in front of us to protect us from this gentleman who was severly intoxicated. He still tried getting past the Prabhus to get up in our faces until finally we had to call a security guard to remove him. I felt sorry for the intoxicated man but he at least got some benefit of hearing the Holy Names. Then there was this other gentleman who kept talking with one of our matajis I felt a bit uneasy about that and stayed a bit of distance. I stayed in the middle with the matajis so that the Prabhus were near by. I was wary of some of the people out there. It made me realize just how scary Kail Yuga really is because people are really losing their minds out there. They need to hear Krishna to stay sane. I kept my mind focused on Krishna the best I could while I was out there. I felt so much better by the time we got back to the temple and felt a lot safer there. But anyways our kirtan went on even after that short incident. I did make a few recordings. I got two recordings of cartoon characters dancing with us while we were chanting the Holy Names and I thought that was great and funny. I also got some pictures as well which I will post here for you. I will upload the videos later for you to see. I want Maharaj to see the videos if he's got time. He'd love it. I will email them to my godsister and see if she can have him watch them.
Anyways I still had a great time! Here are some photos.
We started our kirtan around 6:45pm. It ended at 8pm. This time I noticed a lot of other people liked our chanting and dancing. Some of the people joined in with dancing with us. A few of the Prabhus handed out books. I decided to just chant the Holy Names this time. I tried a little dancing but some of the matajis then did a little bit of fast dancing which I cannot do due to my back so I have to be careful until I get it checked out then maybe after that I can dance faster.
There was almost one incident however with this older guy. We were all trying to be transcendental and chanting the Holy Names to this guy who seemed totally intoxicated. He kept moving up too close to us women and getting in our faces. So a couple of the Prabhus stood in front of us to protect us from this gentleman who was severly intoxicated. He still tried getting past the Prabhus to get up in our faces until finally we had to call a security guard to remove him. I felt sorry for the intoxicated man but he at least got some benefit of hearing the Holy Names. Then there was this other gentleman who kept talking with one of our matajis I felt a bit uneasy about that and stayed a bit of distance. I stayed in the middle with the matajis so that the Prabhus were near by. I was wary of some of the people out there. It made me realize just how scary Kail Yuga really is because people are really losing their minds out there. They need to hear Krishna to stay sane. I kept my mind focused on Krishna the best I could while I was out there. I felt so much better by the time we got back to the temple and felt a lot safer there. But anyways our kirtan went on even after that short incident. I did make a few recordings. I got two recordings of cartoon characters dancing with us while we were chanting the Holy Names and I thought that was great and funny. I also got some pictures as well which I will post here for you. I will upload the videos later for you to see. I want Maharaj to see the videos if he's got time. He'd love it. I will email them to my godsister and see if she can have him watch them.
Anyways I still had a great time! Here are some photos.
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